Stories by self harm tag
i don't want to go back
hi, i used to self harm, i stated cutting when i was 12. it went on until i was 16, am now 19. at that time i had severe depression, i thought i had got better, i was happy for about three years. but now i keep feeling that familiar pain of...
#1264 Read the full story - (Shared: 06/02/2012 12:12:37)
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I'm 13 and have started self harm I have sever depression and am having help with it form my school but only one person knows about my cutting she's my best friend she promases she won't tell any one and I trust hEr she's a really nice person...
#1256 Read the full story - (Shared: 03/02/2012 21:24:59)
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Suicidal
im suicidal. i want to die more than anything. I'm stuck in a bad relationship where theres fighting everyday and i hate it but stay in it because I'm in love. I've been cutting for over a year now. I'm anorexic and bulimic. I've been...
#1247 Read the full story - (Shared: 01/02/2012 21:15:46)
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Suicidal
im suicidal. i want to die more than anything. I'm stuck in a bad relationship where theres fighting everyday and i hate it but stay in it because I'm in love. I've been cutting for over a year now. I'm anorexic and bulimic. I've been...
#1245 Read the full story - (Shared: 01/02/2012 21:15:44)
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better days
I've been cutting for a few months, and it's been my way of coping I suppose when I feel down for various reasons. I'm trying to stop now because i don't get upset anymore like I used too and i'm much happier.I'm now in a relationship with...
#1243 Read the full story - (Shared: 31/01/2012 20:42:17)
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bridges
I've had this dream every since i was little, its the most terrifying thing I've ever experienced and i have to go through it several times a week.I'm running across a bridge, a wooden boarded bridge with rope rails and I get half way across...
#1241 Read the full story - (Shared: 30/01/2012 22:12:32)
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Fear
Alone
I've wrote on here before and it made me feel so much better. i've been self harming for the past few months and I finally found someone that I could trust, that I could talk to everything about and most of all cared about me...well at least I...
#1237 Read the full story - (Shared: 29/01/2012 19:40:43)
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Third Wheel :\ -nonamenikki
I guess I know who my real friends are. Once they start to ignore you, Reality starts kicking in, While the lies tear you down. I was over at my friends place,& they were ignoring me. I would say something & be interrupted,& I wouldn't even...
#1209 Read the full story - (Shared: 22/01/2012 01:01:27)
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Thank you -nonamenikki
I've just wanted to let everyone know, that's it has been very helpful to me. It helps me to let out my thoughts to complete strangers because I'm afraid my friends won't understand. I haven't self-harmed in over a week, that's when I...
#1195 Read the full story - (Shared: 16/01/2012 01:52:41)
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Why are people so mean? nonamenikki
It was actually a good day,kinda. This girl who was my friend last year decided she was going to start crap out of the blue. She was talking to my best friend and called me a "Christian c*nt." Although at the time I blew it off and yelled "At...
#1188 Read the full story - (Shared: 12/01/2012 01:12:55)
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bullied
So I self harm.
Hi, I'm seventeen years old and recently I've started to self harm.I'm not sure why I do it, it all started because I lost a friend whom I saw as a second sister. I couldn't deal with the pain and ended up grabbing a pair of scissors and...
#1180 Read the full story - (Shared: 08/01/2012 16:16:19)
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Breaking point.
Just last night, I freaked from a flu shot. I am scared of needles,and my parents got mad at me. Yes, I did act like a child,but I don't just trust anyone.When I got home, they yelled at me. This caused me to have some kind of mental...
#1179 Read the full story - (Shared: 08/01/2012 04:49:39)
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self harm
Think about it
Just take a moment to think about this- I, like many people on here have self harmed, stopped eating & tried suicide on several occasions but since 6 months ago, i realised that there are so many ways & times when we could kill ourselves & we...
#1164 Read the full story - (Shared: 26/12/2011 16:56:45)
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I cut
Im 14 Nobody knows I cut. All my friends and family think I'm the happiest person ever but I'm far from it. I hate when you read stuff about self harming and people say just don't do it go and do something to take your mind off it, those people...
#1162 Read the full story - (Shared: 23/12/2011 16:31:04)
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What's Happening?
I don't know if I get depressed a lot because I'm at a "certain age" or if something is causing it. I find that self harming helps but even so, it's like I can't control my emotions all of the time. I've talked to a teacher but I'm having...
#1161 Read the full story - (Shared: 22/12/2011 02:49:08)
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depression
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Moving
I'm 11 and I self harm bad but i also have anger problems
My name is Jodie Thomas I'm 11 I've been sespensid from school 29 times I've been askt about the cuts on my face arms legs back. My boyfriend tells me to stop the longest I've stop for is 2 days. I've been going out with my boyfriend for a...
#1160 Read the full story - (Shared: 20/12/2011 22:52:43)
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Everything is fake to me.
I don't know what to do anymore. I cant walk into maths without breaking down in tears because the voices want me to do something. I cut. I tried to stop, my longest time i stopped for is 3 weeks, then it got bad again. My friends pretending to...
#1137 Read the full story - (Shared: 08/12/2011 18:48:40)
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Blah Blah Blah :3
My names Sarah, I'm 16 and have been self harming since I was 11. My life hasn't been the easiest but it hasn't been the hardest. before I started self harming I was very under weight. I would appreciate peoples comments so I could find...
#1121 Read the full story - (Shared: 16/11/2011 22:13:05)
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child hood
hard
i just need to say it. its 4 months since i tried suicide and i selfharmed years before then but in pshe at school im in the group about mental wellbeing and today we had a lesson on selfharm suicide and depression and according to the teacher...
#1120 Read the full story - (Shared: 15/11/2011 21:00:49)
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suicide
The scars...
Ive been on this site before, that was when i had first self-harmed... its been a year...i havent told anyone... its gotten worse... Dont comment....i write these to vent myself <3
#1119 Read the full story - (Shared: 13/11/2011 19:11:51)
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Will I Be Like Him?
I was physically abused between the ages of 10-13 and emotionally abused between the ages of 10-16 by my step-dad,I'm now 17. I struggle to control my anger but I don't want to hurt anyone so I hurt myself,I self harm. Someone said "the abused...
#1101 Read the full story - (Shared: 04/11/2011 10:15:10)
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Cut, cut, cut.
So I've been cutting for about two years, on and off. Whenever I start feeling better, start feeling happy a wave of sadness just drowns me. When this happens I all I can think about is death. But I hardly ever feel happy. I'm just like a ghost,...
#1096 Read the full story - (Shared: 31/10/2011 22:44:26)
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Self Harmers, we are not attention seekers!
I am 13, I've been self harming for a while, I cut, I bleed, blah blah blah... People who are my friends think I'm doing it for attention or I'm playing with there minds. But I'm serious. I cut to release all this horrible emotion inside of...
#1087 Read the full story - (Shared: 22/10/2011 00:06:43)
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And it starts again...
Ive been sitting in my room for 3 hours cring now with the blade against my wrist its hard to resist, i havent harmed in 3 months but lately its as if theres no other alternative. It started when i was 15 my parents were on the brink of divorce...
#1080 Read the full story - (Shared: 11/10/2011 22:23:21)
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self harm
secret scars
i wonder what its like to be me without the voices in my head saying im fat, im worthless, i dont desearve everything i have. to the outside world im a 'happy' 19 year old girl, i have a brilliant family, amazing friends, the best fiance ever...
#1057 Read the full story - (Shared: 09/09/2011 12:48:43)
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self harm
help
hey im 15 now and i have stop self harming but the marks r steal there nobody knows about it i wont tell my family but im scared they will treat me different from it the other day my aunty asked why i did the dishes wiv my sleavs down i coulded...
#1031 Read the full story - (Shared: 09/08/2011 07:31:40)
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self harm
an easy release
So people call me cici.im 14 and i battle against self harm.i have an eating dissorder and i cut.when i was a kid i got bullied because i was "different" from everyone else.when i was 5 i watched my mum walk out on me.for years i thought it was...
#1017 Read the full story - (Shared: 06/08/2011 00:03:46)
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bullying
self harming!
hi my name is abbey and im 14 and ive been self harming for quitea few months. i lost 3 of my grandparents a few years ago and i had bereavement councelling last year about them. i miss them loads. but the thing is my temper and anger leaves me to...
#1013 Read the full story - (Shared: 04/08/2011 15:33:18)
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Scared and Confused
I have only been cutting for a few months but it is starting to scare me! I have tried to stop but each time i feel like I'm getting somewhere life takes another down hill spiral and i turn back to my blades. I seem to be getting deeper and...
#988 Read the full story - (Shared: 25/07/2011 23:55:00)
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Thirteen
ever watched the film thirteen? i rented it out from a blockbusters about a year and a half ago its my favourite movie. im a self harmer, i drink a lot, smoke a lot and smoke weed. and in this film the girl smokes drink does drugs and self harms!...
#979 Read the full story - (Shared: 09/07/2011 21:12:34)
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thirteen
Lost
I'm 12 and i self harm. I have been doing it for almost a year now i never ment for anyone to find out but it slipped out to one of my friends then i told some more friends and after a while school found out. They thought I was a danger to...
#978 Read the full story - (Shared: 09/07/2011 16:21:02)
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self harm
fuck
i am 14 and got fucked by an 18 yr old who i loved, no one could no as we kept it a secret and now everything is fucked. i cut myself cos im to weak to acc kill myself
#975 Read the full story - (Shared: 02/07/2011 00:22:50)
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My story..
I don't cut to kill myself, I cut because I see it as my only option.. Reading some of the stories, really hits home, I see some of the people posting as young as 13 and I think to myself, what reason could they possibly have to cause...
#971 Read the full story - (Shared: 28/06/2011 18:30:40)
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cutting
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self harm
helpless
i havent selfharmed in a few months but i really want to. everythings fallen apart and i dunno what to do. i have no one to talk to. my parents have recently split up, i dont talk to my best friend, i cant talk to my boyfriend and i have also...
#970 Read the full story - (Shared: 28/06/2011 05:03:35)
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My Story.
Hi. I'm Katie. I'm 14. I cut myself everyday. I have voices in my head that make me. No, that's ridiculous. They don't make me - I'm just to weak to resist. They take over and leave me shaking and sobbing. They scream at me and tell me I'm...
#963 Read the full story - (Shared: 23/06/2011 19:27:42)
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Fear
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Help
Life's really getting to me
I'm simply getting sick and tired of living now. Music no longer distracts me. I've been hearing voices and seeing things for the past 4 years and it's getting to the point now where i can't take it anymore... My cutting is just getting deeper...
#962 Read the full story - (Shared: 18/06/2011 22:05:55)
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The end.
I don't know what to do anymore. I lied, the suicidal thoughts never went, now they're worse than ever, maybe its time for me to finally let go. I know how and where it will happen. Now just need the day. I self harm every fucking day and...
#961 Read the full story - (Shared: 18/06/2011 22:04:08)
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fuck this
fuck me, fuck my life. fuck everyone i know. why should i nhave to give a shit about what everyone thinks anymore, im doing this tonight because i dont deserve to live anymore, im such a shitty excuse for a person. you reading this and not...
#958 Read the full story - (Shared: 17/06/2011 20:22:13)
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suicide
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self harm
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life
getting deeper
ok im sick of all this bullshit i had a massive fight wiv my mum last night and now im at my uncles and auntys i swear to god i will try and kill myself i just dont give a fuck anymore and mum making me feel like shit dousent help shes saying all...
#956 Read the full story - (Shared: 16/06/2011 04:21:48)
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self harm
getting deeper
ok my story im 14 and i cut myself i startted at 12 theen stop now i do it again its getting deeper and now ones knows i do this im always wearing jumpers the other night i just broke down thinking how long can i hid this wat cuts will scar wat...
#954 Read the full story - (Shared: 14/06/2011 12:23:53)
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Don't give up
I am 25 years old and its been 8 years since I last cut myself. I self harmed for at least 3 years and suffered from depression for a lot longer. I know how hard, dark and lonely it can feel. But I also know how it can get easier and you can get...
#935 Read the full story - (Shared: 05/06/2011 20:13:35)
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yeah.
fuck this. i've got three packets of painkillers. a litre of vodka. i'm not doing this anymore.
#923 Read the full story - (Shared: 27/05/2011 23:33:02)
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suicide
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Life.
I started to self harm when I was in year 9. so that made me about 13. I cut myself to ease the pain of life. The pain others conflicted on me inside would then be shown on the surface. For everyone to see. I was embarrassed and scared, I...
#893 Read the full story - (Shared: 01/05/2011 23:35:21)
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i feel like dying
my life is dead theres no point anymore im 13 and ive been troubled all my life my mother and father splitting up my closest cousin haveing a muscle disease... i began to self harm when i was 12 it was just a razor but now ive used sharpener...
#886 Read the full story - (Shared: 26/04/2011 08:33:37)
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bleeding on the inside, crying on the out.
I'm sat here waiting, trying to distract from something i know i'll do. My arm, begiing me to add more. My razor in my pocket screaming at me for it to be used. Its killing me, its all i think about day in day out. I've self harmed for about a...
#860 Read the full story - (Shared: 25/03/2011 22:50:55)
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bleeding on the inside, crying on the out.
I'm sat here waiting, trying to distract from something i know i'll do. My arm, begiing me to add more. My razor in my pocket screaming at me for it to be used. Its killing me, its all i think about day in day out. I've self harmed for about a...
#859 Read the full story - (Shared: 25/03/2011 22:50:51)
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bleeding on the inside, crying on the out.
I'm sat here waiting, trying to distract from something i know i'll do. My arm, begiing me to add more. My razor in my pocket screaming at me for it to be used. Its killing me, its all i think about day in day out. I've self harmed for about a...
#858 Read the full story - (Shared: 25/03/2011 22:50:04)
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Ripping from the inside out and it's getting worse...
I'm writing this sat here with a blade in my hand. I've been crying for hours and run out of tears to cry so I bleed instead. I first started to cut about two years ago, barely scratches at first using a compass, but as things started to get...
#810 Read the full story - (Shared: 27/02/2011 00:54:22)
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its harder to write it.
I'm a self harmer, cutter, idiot as some people call me. But I don't care, i've hurt enough people with what I do, I can't feel worse than I already do. Life doesn't ever seem to get better does it? Everytime I thought my life was getting...
#805 Read the full story - (Shared: 15/02/2011 19:09:51)
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My life.
Trying to write this down is going to be very difficult and I’m not particularly good at English but here goes: My mum died when I was only 7.
#777 Read the full story - (Shared: 30/12/2010 21:31:31)
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Bad Habits..
Well.. here goes... i guess? I'm 13. Back in November of last year (13 months ago) a 'friend' of mine started cutting herself because we're into rock,metal and scene kind of styles. I realised she was mainly doing it for the attention...
#771 Read the full story - (Shared: 18/12/2010 22:28:36)
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15, and its getting worse..
im 15 now, and a few months ago things went really downhill for me. i used to be a cool kid in school, smart, and things were alright. then my paents started having all these arguments, and my dad scarted going crazy. he once walked into my...
#765 Read the full story - (Shared: 27/11/2010 10:35:27)
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mums worst fear... id become her
MOTHERS WORST FEAR! Well my story where do I begin well as many others I didn’t understand self harm and I thought it was selfish attention seeking behaviour from my ignorant knowledge of it. I think this came from a few girls years before...
#740 Read the full story - (Shared: 26/10/2010 18:22:52)
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depression and life expereinces
depression ruined my life!
it started from a very younge age, i was about 5 when my mum met a her boyfriend at first he was allways nice to my family but as i became 10 he soon turned. i got emotionally beaten down by him everyday. he used to say thinkgs like "your ugly...
#703 Read the full story - (Shared: 03/08/2010 03:29:43)
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Her life with cancer, my life with pain, #2
Now, I'm doing self harm, and life seems almost too hard, and she was my anchor. It's so much lighter now, and I'm being driven insane. I have good grades, good friends, a good remaining family, so why am I being so selfish and stupid? All I...
#674 Read the full story - (Shared: 08/07/2010 21:45:28)
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Just another voice
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thoughts of suicide
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Her life with cancer, my life with pain
I am almost thirteen, and three months ago, my baby sister died. The 14th of April. And she was goig to be two on the 8th of May. She died from cancer. Due to computor problems, I can't write much, so I'll sum it up; Now I'm depressed. One of...
#673 Read the full story - (Shared: 08/07/2010 21:40:51)
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Just another voice
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self harm
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thoughts of suicide
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Cancer
Just Another Day
Ok, so I started self-harming when I was in Year 8 (I'm in Year 11 now) so I must have been about 12/13. I did it on and off for AGES- just doing it occasionally, maybe once every two weeks or something like that. Nothing really bad,...
#664 Read the full story - (Shared: 08/06/2010 23:08:56)
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my falldown
ok dont know how to write this but here it goes....... when i first started high school i was a bit of a loser, had couple of friends, done ok at school work and was a nice girl to people, then my school moved me groups to a bad good, dont know...
#634 Read the full story - (Shared: 19/03/2010 21:04:50)
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Regret and Shame masks the pain
Ok here goes.. im not really sure how i ended up writing this but have read so many of your stories and i can relate and i hope someone can learn something from mine. Im 21 years old ive been self harming since i was 17, my mum was abused when...
#623 Read the full story - (Shared: 10/03/2010 01:53:56)
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warning of regret
life of a troubled kid
My story starts at the age of six, my best friend was dead and I witnessed it all. I had no confidence in myself and I was so depressed. I yearned for a way out. There was nothing to ease the pain. I wanted to stop it, stop everything, I wanted to...
#573 Read the full story - (Shared: 07/12/2009 21:07:14)
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self harm
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I'll get there eventually...
I remember the first time I did it. I was young, and I was in that protective little bubble where before that the only thing that could upset me was mum telling me off for not saying please and thank you. The world had just started to get a bit...
#499 Read the full story - (Shared: 22/06/2009 21:03:35)
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The truth behind those glassy eyes people used to look straight through and ignore the pain...
Staring at the bright screen in front of me, it's not hard to remember at all. It caused me too much pain to ever forget. She caused me too much pain to ever forget. Looking back to before year 3, I never would've imagined my life turning out...
#353 Read the full story - (Shared: 06/08/2008 16:41:13)
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thatartificialsmile
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Pain
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bullying
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Dealing with it
It’s 2.38am and I’m sitting here writing this after scratching fuck out of my arm. It’s something I used to do a lot when I was a kid. If you’d have asked me at the time why I wouldn’t be able to tell you. Now looking back it seems I am just a...
#215 Read the full story - (Shared: 10/12/2007 03:09:51)
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From child to mother
My story starts when I was just a little girl. I started off quite shy and very sensitive so when I was subjected to an abusive stepfather from the age of 4 I became even more withdrawn. There was a constant tension in the house, and so I became...
#197 Read the full story - (Shared: 29/10/2007 23:58:04)
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autism
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depression
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suicide
Help me please
I found this site by typing 'Help me please' into google. I needed support from somewhere, but wasn't quite sure where. Alot of my family has suffered from symptons very much like that of manic depressives and i am afraid that i might be going...
#76 Read the full story - (Shared: 16/01/2007 20:05:32)
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Megan jenkins
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love triangle
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unreguited love
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Help
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manic depressive
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lonliness
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meningitus
My Cure
heres one of my blog journals i wrote the other day.... i just just hope in sharing this stroy, people can relate and hopefully gain some advice from it and Hopefully help in some way??? Sunday, December 31, 2006 My Stroy on 'My Cure'...
#65 Read the full story - (Shared: 02/01/2007 06:01:46)
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i hate my mum
most would say that i am an average teen in an average family, well thats what it looks like. the thing is, i absolutely despise my mum, i actually feel physically sick when she is near me bcs i can't stand her. she is someone who thinks she is...
Read the full Story 25/04/2007 17:36:47
Too lonely to live
I'm alone and unwanted. I have been for as long as I can remember. I always have been, I always will be. I've heard all the "someone for eveyone" lies, but isn't it funny how that particular platitude always comes from people who have...
Read the full Story 28/09/2006 20:09:20
So what is my story?
I have been struggling with my life for just over 31 years. More recently I am seeing friends getting married and starting families while I am still single. I have been getting tired of all the comments and have felt like the male Bridget Jones...
Read the full Story 01/08/2006 21:56:27
Feeling lonely and pathetic
Hi there, I am a 39 year old man. Having read the postings on this site, I feel my story is slightly different. Many of the contributors feel trapped in families or jobs, whereas I feel I cant even get that far. I have never been loved, or know...
Read the full Story 24/09/2006 19:44:28
i hate my mum
ever since my mum and dad split up my mum has been makin my life harder and i dont have the guts 2 run away or move out. i get the blame 4 every thing and i when i say any thing back she just hits me and shouts at me. feel like killin my self...
Read the full Story 18/03/2007 19:44:29