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i don't want to go back

hi, i used to self harm, i stated cutting when i was 12. it went on until i was 16, am now 19. at that time i had severe depression, i thought i had got better, i was happy for about three years. but now i keep feeling that familiar pain of...

#1264 Read the full story - (Shared: 06/02/2012 12:12:37) Comments: 1
Tags: self harm - depression

OliviaCoombes27

Hey. My name is Olivia Coombes. I used to cut myself, my mum had just died of cancer and I felt depressed and in need of a friend. So I turned to one. She was amazing to me and I loved her. It's been 2 years since my mum died and a month since I...

#1257 Read the full story - (Shared: 04/02/2012 17:20:15) Comments: 2
Tags: Self-harm - friendship - death - ADVICE! - depression

Suicidal

im suicidal. i want to die more than anything. I'm stuck in a bad relationship where theres fighting everyday and i hate it but stay in it because I'm in love. I've been cutting for over a year now. I'm anorexic and bulimic. I've been...

#1247 Read the full story - (Shared: 01/02/2012 21:15:46) Comments: 3
Tags: self harm - cutting - suicidal - anorexia - bulimia - depression - BPD - Help

Suicidal

#1248 Read the full story - (Shared: 01/02/2012 21:15:46) Comments: 0
Tags: self harm cutting - suicidal - anorexia - bulimia - depression - BPD - Help

Suicidal

#1246 Read the full story - (Shared: 01/02/2012 21:15:45) Comments: 0
Tags: self harm cutting - suicidal - anorexia - bulimia - depression - BPD - Help

Suicidal

#1245 Read the full story - (Shared: 01/02/2012 21:15:44) Comments: 1
Tags: self harm - ] cutting - suicidal - anorexia - bulimia - depression - BPD - Help

Think about it

Just take a moment to think about this- I, like many people on here have self harmed, stopped eating & tried suicide on several occasions but since 6 months ago, i realised that there are so many ways & times when we could kill ourselves & we...

#1164 Read the full story - (Shared: 26/12/2011 16:56:45) Comments: 2
Tags: self harm - depression - suicide - anorexia - lost - think - cars - death - recovery

What's Happening?

I don't know if I get depressed a lot because I'm at a "certain age" or if something is causing it. I find that self harming helps but even so, it's like I can't control my emotions all of the time. I've talked to a teacher but I'm having...

#1161 Read the full story - (Shared: 22/12/2011 02:49:08) Comments: 2
Tags: self harm - depression - Moving

I can't deal with life.

For years I've had depression, and I really don't think I'll ever get better. I turned 18 today, and it's been the worst day of my life so far because I can't deal with all the pressures of school and family that surround me. I'm so fed up...

#1150 Read the full story - (Shared: 16/12/2011 21:26:23) Comments: 2
Tags: depression - suicide

hard

i just need to say it. its 4 months since i tried suicide and i selfharmed years before then but in pshe at school im in the group about mental wellbeing and today we had a lesson on selfharm suicide and depression and according to the teacher...

#1120 Read the full story - (Shared: 15/11/2011 21:00:49) Comments: 4
Tags: self harm - depression - helpless - suicide

Compulsive Liar

I lie constantly to paint myself a nice picture. Truth is, I'm an anorexic who hates the way she looks. People talk about me behind my back, I know they do but I just pretend not to listen. People say I have the perfect life and that I'm really...

#1104 Read the full story - (Shared: 05/11/2011 18:30:41) Comments: 4
Tags: anorexic - suicide - depression - hatred - Pain - death - hell.

i want to be normal.

ive always known that something wasn't right, but being told I have anxiety and depression has really hit me hard, I don't want to accept the fact that im ill. I don't want any medication. I just want to be normal:'(

#1088 Read the full story - (Shared: 22/10/2011 18:30:50) Comments: 2
Tags: depression

should i stay or should i qo ?

To be honest, i dont want to keep livinq like this.Im 15, practically homeless, no family, raped, been in jail, in CYFS, on druqs, smokes, drinks, alone, self harms ect. Someone help me ? please? )': FTWurld FMLife )':

#1039 Read the full story - (Shared: 15/08/2011 07:49:46) Comments: 4
Tags: depression

Life's really getting to me

I'm simply getting sick and tired of living now. Music no longer distracts me. I've been hearing voices and seeing things for the past 4 years and it's getting to the point now where i can't take it anymore... My cutting is just getting deeper...

#962 Read the full story - (Shared: 18/06/2011 22:05:55) Comments: 17
Tags: self harm - suicide - cutting - depression - voices

The end.

I don't know what to do anymore. I lied, the suicidal thoughts never went, now they're worse than ever, maybe its time for me to finally let go. I know how and where it will happen. Now just need the day. I self harm every fucking day and...

#961 Read the full story - (Shared: 18/06/2011 22:04:08) Comments: 10
Tags: suicide - self harm - voices - depression

Stop the pain.

I'm going to commit suicide soon. I've been self-harming for three years since I was 13, and I just can't take it any longer. I hate life, and i shall embrace death with cold arms and a soaring heart.

#957 Read the full story - (Shared: 16/06/2011 10:00:06) Comments: 12
Tags: death - suicide - Self-harm - depression

Don't give up

I am 25 years old and its been 8 years since I last cut myself. I self harmed for at least 3 years and suffered from depression for a lot longer. I know how hard, dark and lonely it can feel. But I also know how it can get easier and you can get...

#935 Read the full story - (Shared: 05/06/2011 20:13:35) Comments: 3
Tags: overcome - self harm - depression - lonely - not alone - Help - talk

Why is it never enough?

Hi all hope you are feeling better today. about me: I am a 35yo male I have 3 lovely children, however I am no longer with their mum (and no not my choice), I have a full time job, I'm living in a house with a friend and have a good family to...

#928 Read the full story - (Shared: 29/05/2011 10:33:13) Comments: 2
Tags: self destructive - suicidal - depression

My life.

Trying to write this down is going to be very difficult and I’m not particularly good at English but here goes: My mum died when I was only 7.

#777 Read the full story - (Shared: 30/12/2010 21:31:31) Comments: 9
Tags: cutting - self harm - depression - friends - death

Bad Habits..

Well.. here goes... i guess? I'm 13. Back in November of last year (13 months ago) a 'friend' of mine started cutting herself because we're into rock,metal and scene kind of styles. I realised she was mainly doing it for the attention...

#771 Read the full story - (Shared: 18/12/2010 22:28:36) Comments: 9
Tags: self harm - cutting - teenager - bad habits - Childhood - depression

depression ruined my life!

it started from a very younge age, i was about 5 when my mum met a her boyfriend at first he was allways nice to my family but as i became 10 he soon turned. i got emotionally beaten down by him everyday. he used to say thinkgs like "your ugly...

#703 Read the full story - (Shared: 03/08/2010 03:29:43) Comments: 20
Tags: depression - self harm - abuse

Her life with cancer, my life with pain, #2

Now, I'm doing self harm, and life seems almost too hard, and she was my anchor. It's so much lighter now, and I'm being driven insane. I have good grades, good friends, a good remaining family, so why am I being so selfish and stupid? All I...

#674 Read the full story - (Shared: 08/07/2010 21:45:28) Comments: 11
Tags: Just another voice - thoughts of suicide - depression - Cancer - self harm

my falldown

ok dont know how to write this but here it goes....... when i first started high school i was a bit of a loser, had couple of friends, done ok at school work and was a nice girl to people, then my school moved me groups to a bad good, dont know...

#634 Read the full story - (Shared: 19/03/2010 21:04:50) Comments: 4
Tags: depression - self harm - uphappy

Is there something wrong with her?

I'm 18 and so is my girlfriend. I used to think of her as quite moody and she can be really irrational. But now I think it may be something more serious. The more she trusts me the more she lets me into her secret posessions. Like her...

#613 Read the full story - (Shared: 28/02/2010 16:36:29) Comments: 6
Tags: depression

i hate my life.

im depressed. long story cut short - my mum constantly picks fights or arguments, nothing i do is ever right for her. i used to cut myself bcs of her, i even tried an over-dose to get away.. she makes me feel THAT bad about myself. she tells me...

#551 Read the full story - (Shared: 23/10/2009 21:35:28) Comments: 1
Tags: depression

whats the point of life?

i have been sad for as long as i can remember, for over 22 years i longed for someone too be my friend. but every time i approach someone they just laugh and make fun of me. i have been wandering what i lacked, i thought may be it is my...

#529 Read the full story - (Shared: 03/09/2009 02:04:03) Comments: 8
Tags: depression - death

I'll get there eventually...

I remember the first time I did it. I was young, and I was in that protective little bubble where before that the only thing that could upset me was mum telling me off for not saying please and thank you. The world had just started to get a bit...

#499 Read the full story - (Shared: 22/06/2009 21:03:35) Comments: 17
Tags: self harm - suicide - true accounts - true story - self mutilation - mental illness - depression

I'm always so tired

I love speaking other languages and I want to have a career in foreign languages when I am older. I'm 14 years old and I am already fluent in five languages, and I'm starting on my sixth now. To do that I have to stay up into the small hours...

#384 Read the full story - (Shared: 20/12/2008 14:45:07) Comments: 6
Tags: anorexia - stress - gcse - England - philippines - culture - mum - Hate - depression - dance

The truth behind those glassy eyes people used to look straight through and ignore the pain...

Staring at the bright screen in front of me, it's not hard to remember at all. It caused me too much pain to ever forget. She caused me too much pain to ever forget. Looking back to before year 3, I never would've imagined my life turning out...

#353 Read the full story - (Shared: 06/08/2008 16:41:13) Comments: 9
Tags: thatartificialsmile - Pain - bullying - suicide - overdose - self harm - bottling it up - depression - relapse - learning - Regret

Everything

I just don't know where to start really, I feel like I'm having a complete breakdown and I don't know what to do or where to go. I'm 24, 9 years ago my Dad was diagnosed with cancer and my mum was diagnosed with emphysema. My Dad found this...

#255 Read the full story - (Shared: 23/03/2008 20:20:37) Comments: 4
Tags: Cancer - depression

Falling into a black hole

It's 2:30pm. I'm still in my dressing gown sat on my sofa. I'm out of work at the moment and know I won't be able to get another freelance contract til the new year. Hence why I'm just sitting here. I'm very lucky that I have a loving...

#216 Read the full story - (Shared: 12/12/2007 14:43:18) Comments: 2
Tags: depression

From child to mother

My story starts when I was just a little girl. I started off quite shy and very sensitive so when I was subjected to an abusive stepfather from the age of 4 I became even more withdrawn. There was a constant tension in the house, and so I became...

#197 Read the full story - (Shared: 29/10/2007 23:58:04) Comments: 3
Tags: strong - abuse - Childhood - autism - depression - self harm - suicide

DESPERATE FOR CHANGE AND A FUTURE 2

I thought it would have helped me deal with things a lot better, after my last item, but since posting it, things have just got worse, and now today I have just reached a real low, the lowest I have felt since the late 90's, when I really wanted...

#173 Read the full story - (Shared: 03/08/2007 13:17:07) Comments: 1
Tags: depression - SO DESPERATE - FED UP WITH LIFE - I WANT A JOB!

no one will listen

'you look sad, i'm worried, you're not happy, would you like someone to talk to who can help?' yes. but i never got it. everybody in my life wants to sugarcoat my eating disorder apart from me. i just don't know what to do anymore.

#90 Read the full story - (Shared: 10/02/2007 16:57:23) Comments: 4
Tags: eating disorders - anorexia - depression - lost - lonely - sad - ugly - fat

Guilty Over Weight

I thought I was happy with my weight, untill I saw holiday pics of myself I felt aweful. I'm 20, 5ft 4" and weigh 9 stone (size 12) and used to be 2 stone heavier till I managed to lose the weight. Whenever I look at myself in the mirror i just...

#82 Read the full story - (Shared: 29/01/2007 21:08:32) Comments: 1
Tags: Jealousy - Weight - depression

Chelsea

My girlfriend, Chelsea, and I had been dating for almost a year. I truly did love her, and I knew it was true, because it's the longest relationship I've ever been in and past relationships haven't been as completing, or were simply...

#74 Read the full story - (Shared: 15/01/2007 21:47:41) Comments: 7
Tags: love - loss - Chelsea - sad - depressed - depression - mike - michael - torture - agony - anxiety

My Cure

heres one of my blog journals i wrote the other day.... i just just hope in sharing this stroy, people can relate and hopefully gain some advice from it and Hopefully help in some way??? Sunday, December 31, 2006 My Stroy on 'My Cure'...

#65 Read the full story - (Shared: 02/01/2007 06:01:46) Comments: 51
Tags: depression - self harm - ED - bullys - love - rehab

lost convicts soul

Hi my name is john and im going to share some personal stuff with you all, that I haven’t with others, I came from a broken home and was raised by an alcoholic mother I have one brother and a sister. We were pretty much on our own as our mother...

#62 Read the full story - (Shared: 31/12/2006 05:46:39) Comments: 4
Tags: love - sorry - Help - lost - depression - relationship

It happens to the best of us...

I'm Chris, I come from rural England near London. I find it easier to explain myself as a metaphor really: When I go for a job interview I always impress - I appear happy, confident, full of personality and humour and like someone who is...

#41 Read the full story - (Shared: 22/11/2006 00:37:57) Comments: 2
Tags: lost - Hope - depression - sensitive

feeling lonely and shy and out of place and feel real low need serious help

it all started at the age of 11 where i had started school. i was always feeling low and out of place. and i had been feeling claustrophobic ever since. i never know what to do and always feel as if I'm the only one feeling this way. while...

#39 Read the full story - (Shared: 11/11/2006 03:05:27) Comments: 7
Tags: depression

i need to talk

i have needed someone to talk to for a while but im not very good at talking to people so i thought i shud just write it all down.well this might seem a bit supid but im only 15 and for the last 2 months i have been really upset angry and...

#15 Read the full story - (Shared: 22/09/2006 04:44:19) Comments: 6
Tags: lost - scared - afraid - depression

Favourite Stories

i hate my mum

most would say that i am an average teen in an average family, well thats what it looks like. the thing is, i absolutely despise my mum, i actually feel physically sick when she is near me bcs i can't stand her. she is someone who thinks she is...

Read the full Story 25/04/2007 17:36:47

Too lonely to live

I'm alone and unwanted. I have been for as long as I can remember. I always have been, I always will be. I've heard all the "someone for eveyone" lies, but isn't it funny how that particular platitude always comes from people who have...

Read the full Story 28/09/2006 20:09:20

So what is my story?

I have been struggling with my life for just over 31 years. More recently I am seeing friends getting married and starting families while I am still single. I have been getting tired of all the comments and have felt like the male Bridget Jones...

Read the full Story 01/08/2006 21:56:27

Feeling lonely and pathetic

Hi there, I am a 39 year old man. Having read the postings on this site, I feel my story is slightly different. Many of the contributors feel trapped in families or jobs, whereas I feel I cant even get that far. I have never been loved, or know...

Read the full Story 24/09/2006 19:44:28

ever since my mum and dad split up my mum has been makin my life harder and i dont have the guts 2 run away or move out. i get the blame 4 every thing and i when i say any thing back she just hits me and shouts at me. feel like killin my self...

Read the full Story 18/03/2007 19:44:29