True life stories.

No one ever really wants me.

I don't know what to do anymore. Everywhere I look I see people, Happy, Pally and almost perfect and then I look in the mirror and see me. It's getting so bad that I now burst into tears. I have always found it hard to maintain friends. I was serverely bullied at Primary school. The whole 2 class' of the year sniggered and picked on me and then I didn't do much better at secondry school. I now work at a stables and it's lovely there but I constantly get the feeling that I am needed but never really wanted. I have practically no social life and a mild phobia of crowded areas. I just don't know whats wrong with me and why I should be hated so much. Is there any purpose for me actually being alive. My home life isn't much better, my father has a terrible and uncontrolable temper which on very bad occations he has lashed out and hit my sisters and I. My older sister isn't much better because she has a hormonal condition so is always pushing me down and I know she doesn't mean it but I can't handle the pressure anymore. I wake up in the morning and just want to finish it. I'm gabbling one and being really self-centred and selfish because nobody has it easy but I just don't know what to do anymore.

Story shared: 14/02/2007 19:04:45

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#1 by Sammy on 14/02/2007 21:15:40 (id-474).
Hi, other people may seem happy but they can hide dark secrets so don't think your alone. People who pick on other people are sad and obviously have nothing better to do. I know it's hard not to let them get to you but try not to let them. People put me down all the time at school and yes I did let them get to me but they've ended up unhappy. Write down your good points and don't try and change for anyone. I know I'm not much help but things will get better one day. Trust me.

#2 by everythinggoingforher on 20/02/2007 04:28:40 (id-487).
Hi, I feel like you are writing about me! My life feels like it is very similar to yours. I was bullied at school for being overweight and my confidence is at an all time low. I came across this website by chance and feel lucky I have because reading your story makes me feel I am not alone and I get a positive buzz from it. I know Im not in the position to say anything helpful, but I wanted to say you are not alone. I know how you feel. Sammy is right, I'm gonna write down my good points too..

#3 by everythinggoingforher on 20/02/2007 04:29:30 (id-488).
Hi, I feel like you are writing about me! My life feels like it is very similar to yours. I was bullied at school for being overweight and my confidence is at an all time low. I came across this website by chance and feel lucky I have because reading your story makes me feel I am not alone and I get a positive buzz from it. I know Im not in the position to say anything helpful, but I wanted to say you are not alone. I know how you feel. Sammy is right, I'm gonna write down my good points too..

#4 by brill on 01/03/2007 15:59:17 (id-493).
don't worry mate because i am in the exact same situation as you and you may seem like you are on your own but other people go throught the same as you and some people are just jealous and they just want what you have got . just ignor them and just be more confiedent with your mates so you don't do what i did and loose your confiedence because it will ruin your life.

#5 by Susan on 01/03/2007 23:13:40 (id-494).
You are worth ten thousand times more than any of those who bullied you. It was their problem NOT yours, you have done NOTHING wrong, Please don't despair and dont let them keep on bullying you!! Stand tall, stick your chin out and yell "RIGHT WORLD-BRING IT ON!!!" Thers an old piece of written work called The Desiderata and it says "You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars: you have a right to be here!" No one has the right to take that away from you , please dont let anyone stop you from living life because you only get one chance and you have to take it.

#6 by BPJ on 13/01/2008 22:50:46 (id-864).
Never give up in life. almost every person has got his/her weakness

#7 by BPJ on 13/01/2008 22:54:00 (id-865).
Never give up in life. almost every person has got his/her weakness

True life stories.

No one ever really wants me.

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