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Is My Life Worth Living

I'm 20 I don't know why I bother living my life. Just when things start looking up they come crashing down. I was a bit of a wild child when I was younger but I'm trying my hardest to make something out of my life now but everyone is bringing me down. My boyfriends family, who I live with, are making my life miserable. One minute they're being nice to me then accusing me of stealing or something. I've never stole anything, stole drugs or hurt anyone in my life. People think they can treat me like dirt then expect me to be nice to them, as and when the chose, but I have to be nice because I would end up with no one. They never apologise or anything either. My friends aren't much better. I'm trying really hard in my job too but they don't appriciate it there either. I've been planning on getting pregnant so at least I'd have someone to love me... I feel like I'm always trying to impress and be nice to people but for what? To be treated like dirt again?What am I going to do?

Story shared: 10/02/2007 20:00:39

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#1 by Morning after the storm on 15/02/2007 18:09:10 (id-480).
How selfish of you, considering of bringing a child into an unstable and unhappy enviroment just so you can feel someone wants you. Sorry to be harsh but be realistic. Stick with your job, keep trying to be nice and honest no matter how much anyone trys to stitch you up. Proove them wrong. Set aims, higher but realistic goals for yourself. Give people no reason to doubt you even if they try and perhaps have a talk to your boyfriends parents. Ask to have a chat and sit down, talk like adults and say how your feeling, See what they reply - just don't loose your cool. You could find it really helps. Make plans for your life and really go for them, Do the ups and downs and see the light at the end of the long and harsh tunnel and then be proud. Never give up because you can do it.

#2 by Been there on 04/03/2007 15:09:25 (id-496).
When I was 17 I had a baby so at least someone would love me. He's in his 30's now, and has survived, but I'm not sure how scarred he is. I'm ashamed to say that I dragged him through 3 broken marriages to unsuitable men and one long term relationship with a man who was physically and verbally abusive to me in the kid's presence. My son's dad and my second husband (my second child's dad) are now dead, one through drugs, the other through alcohol. I aimed low, for dependent people who would need me. They never gave anything back. They just sucked me dry, when I should have been giving my all to my children. I wish I had waited and got my head seen to before I started a family. I would have been a better parent and my kids might now be happier adults. Neither of my kids have been married or had children - I wonder if I have put them off for life? Probably.

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