True life stories.

My pain, just grew ...

well, hey, i'm stacey, this is my story ...

I was 13 years old, i got bullied for having a "big bum" i just felt ugly, a waste of life, helpless, pointless and scared. Ive Never been hardly hugged ever in my life because i'd always push everyone away, no one could understand me, Ever. I always broke down into tears, one nigh it got worse.

I woke up, it was a fairly summer day, birds tweeting happily, everyone was spread around my household doing their own thing, i went in the kitchen drawer and pulled out a sharp knife with a suicide note in hand, the knife so close to my chest, i pushed it closer, but i couldn't do it, and carried on the rest of the day as normal..

There was a boy in school that i still, even now, have a crush on, ever since the first day i saw him, back in my first year of highschool, up until now a 15 year old, helpless, i could never possibly tell him i love him, he was 2 years higher, i could probably write a whole book about him, but who would ever like such a hideous person?

Story shared: 06/03/2011 22:16:42

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#1 by stacey, on 06/03/2011 22:18:03 (id-3548).
there IS more but theres only limited space of words you can use :(

#2 by Izi on 07/03/2011 13:47:17 (id-3558).
Aww, believe me, anyone who cares about how you look above what type of person you are isn't worth caring about. Just remember that you are the only person whose love you really need
But we all [the readers of this website] care about you and don't give a damn how you look x

#3 by stacey, on 07/03/2011 16:55:24 (id-3559).
through time (im now 15) i started being anorexic, i had bones showing, and then i got bullied because of that, im now getting on track and throughout this, the moral is ... no matter how hard, you try to please a crowd, the crowd, will NEVER be pleased, so just be who you are and DONT be ashamed.

#4 by Izi on 07/03/2011 20:01:06 (id-3568).
Glad you're on the right track now :)
You're right about blending in + pleasing the crowd
Good luck :)

#5 by stacey, on 07/03/2011 22:39:25 (id-3574).
Thank you VERY much :) xx

#6 by Alice on 22/03/2011 12:10:18 (id-3689).
Be positive, like you say there will always be pathetic people that think everyone is either too fat, too skinny, too this, too that- ignore them! People that bully people are lonely, pathetic and have bigger problems then most! Do not hurt yourself this is not the way to go! This is what all the sick bullies in the world want, you are better than that. No one is perfect but everyone has good points and beauty inside them :) x

#7 by LOL on 24/03/2011 17:28:17 (id-3718).
STACEY BABES ;) FFFFFFFFUUUUUUUU alice and Lzi

#8 by cutiepie on 26/10/2011 19:57:43 (id-4850).
You're amazing just the way you are hunny, I'm 13, and I get bullied for having 'big boobs' but mine aren't really that big :) Ignore what others say and just be yourself :) To be loved, you have to love yourself(:

#9 by Stella elah x on 01/04/2012 17:36:02 (id-8978).
darling, i know how you feel, i am bullied for having 'big boobs', it hurts, but ignore those people who think big butt's are ugly because i personly love them, the guy i like is one of my teachers and, trust me, he has a massive butt <3
i have come close to suiside, but dont, please! things will improvwb:)/

True life stories.

My pain, just grew ...

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