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Her life with cancer, my life with pain, #2

Now, I'm doing self harm, and life seems almost too hard, and she was my anchor. It's so much lighter now, and I'm being driven insane. I have good grades, good friends, a good remaining family, so why am I being so selfish and stupid? All I want to do is to protect people, bu I can't even do that, not while I can't protect myself. So I need two things; someone who will offer support and adive, and someone who will tell me that it's true;I'm selfish, and they've known people who have died too. I hate me.

Story shared: 08/07/2010 21:45:28

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#1 by Sam =] x on 21/07/2010 22:06:49 (id-2680).
I'm not that person. You're not being selfish and i have known people that have died, and had cancer 2. My advice is to talk to 1 of your closest friends that you think will understand or contact a help line. I know this is what lots of people would say but...

#2 by Sam =] x on 21/07/2010 22:07:01 (id-2681).
I'm not that person. You're not being selfish and i have known people that have died, and had cancer 2. My advice is to talk to 1 of your closest friends that you think will understand or contact a help line. I know this is what lots of people would say but...

#3 by Sam =] x on 21/07/2010 22:08:21 (id-2682).
It will fade in time, you will never forget her or love her any less but the pain is easier to cope with. Try and concentrate on the possitive things in your life, thats what i did or find a hobby. I'm not sure what use this will be for you but i'm trying to help people that suffer from experiances like you. I hope it will get better for you =] Good luck with your life x Sorry, it wouldn't let me type it all x

#4 by Sam =] x on 21/07/2010 22:36:01 (id-2683).
Sorry for so many comments but i just had an idea... I'm not sure if you will reply or can so i'm gunna give you my personal email address to use if you need to talk or any advice totally anominously. I am a 14 year old english girl just so you have an idea who might be talking to.

#5 by Sam =] x on 21/07/2010 22:36:16 (id-2684).
Sorry for so many comments but i just had an idea... I'm not sure if you will reply or can so i'm gunna give you my personal email address to use if you need to talk or any advice totally anominously. I am a 14 year old english girl just so you have an idea who might be talking to.

#6 by Sam =] x on 21/07/2010 22:36:43 (id-2685).
I really like the idea of helping people so i might set up a new email account dedicated to giving advice ect please tell me if you think this is a good idea or might fail completely. Email: bubbles _ sam @ hotmail.co.uk without the spaces

#7 by Just aother voice on 25/07/2010 17:42:01 (id-2693).
I can comment. I think it's a good idea, I'm just a bit nervous about it. I'm a bit of a freak with stuff like child saftey. I might though, I'll have a think. If you get an email from me, then it means I'm feeling pretty awful to overcome my fear of people using my email address for stuff. But still, you're the only one who's commented, so that makes me feel, well, more trusting of you. Thanks.

#8 by kat on 04/11/2010 00:51:30 (id-2987).
i lost my hsbnd wn i ws 20 i got a son who ws 1 at the time i strted 2 slf harm and cnfort eating,i wnt really down bt i new i hd 2 change cz it really hrt.it ws really hard but i changd my life around.11 years hv passed and i hvnt dn slf harm 4 over 8 years.the ones v love wl always be in our hearts and minds,no matter how far they r.look into yr heart thats wr she lives.life a struggl bt v hv 2 make the most of it.i now wt yr going through,yr nt slfsh its part of greivng.be strong,gd luck,take care.

#9 by Izi on 24/12/2010 16:33:43 (id-3257).
You're not being selfish, it's only human to be upset and you have a right to be upset but i think you should try to stop self-harming and go for some councelling? I'm a self-harmer so I know how hard it is to stop but you have to be strong for your loved ones. Ok? Best of luck x

#10 by Just another voice on 08/02/2011 13:08:28 (id-3444).
Thanks.

#11 by cola luv ya :-) on 14/05/2011 21:39:54 (id-3992).
It must hav been awful to lose ur sister. i hav a lil bro and i cant even imagine losing him. I am really sorry for ur loss but u need to get on wiv ur life. Ur sis wouldnt want u to waste ur life, soz if this sounds harsh. u need to talk 2 some1 about how losing her made u feel. Talk to some1 u trust u deserve a good life. best of luck!!!

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