why is everything so damn hard
There’s this guy that I’ve liked for so long and I just cant seem to get him out of my head and I like him so much and I know he doesn’t like me back in that way.
Then one day I decided to tell him that I like him and how I felt and I was stupid. I got shot down and I hate that I finally come out and tell someone how I really feel and I get rejected and since then the pain hasn’t gone away and what makes it worse is that I have to see him every day and he doesn’t know how much he hurt me and I'm sick of the endless nights I spend in my room crying because the pains to much to bare I cant go on like this but I cant move on and everyday he calls me and he flirts and we talk for hours and it makes me feel sooooooooo incredible but then he has to go and we hang up and I feel worse then before and I just sit there looking at pictures and thinking about everything. Like the time he took me away from the party and we walked in the dark on Christmas eve looking at the beautiful lights and talking and everything and how he gave me piggyback rides all the time and how we have so much in common and how were meant to be together and he doesn’t get it but then I start thinking about maybe its me maybe I'm not pretty enough for him or maybe I said or did something or maybe ... I don’t know I lay in bed going over every detail trying to figure out what I did and what I did to screw it up! I feel worse then I ever have and I don’t know what to do!
Story shared: 04/01/2007 06:40:20
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when my first love broke up with i felt unpretty, unwanted and all that u said, i also cried for nights on end going over and over everything in my head....
in the end i moved on, got over it and now were like best friends again.
in ur case maybe his just scared of commitment or dosen't want to commit yet? maybe he dosen't want to ruin what u guys have now or thinks being in a realationship will ruin it all together.... or maybe u just seem to desparete and clingy? so maybe y not try give him a little chase, don't flirt but secretly be seductive and sexy, get a makeover? or even quit hanging out with him so much and make him miss u and this may make him realise that he actually feels something for u?
u could try dating someone else? this might help u move on completely from him or could make him see what his missing.....
to me tho it sound like u two have good foundations for a realationship....
if he don't responed to u in a few weeks or months i just say move on and forget about him find someone whose not gonna make u cry, find someone whose gonna worship u like a goddess.... cos that's what ur worth, remember that?
and trust me 1 thing i regret is letting my life go and completely leaving my happiness down to one person.... it's not healthy for u and not the way to a happy realationship and life....
i Hopes This Helps
TinkyBells xx
ps. ''The Heart has the Power 2 Love and Love again.''
also ''Through every Journey we Take, the ones that makes us HURT r the ones that makes us Stronger.''
Just be aware of his needs and wants as well as ur own a bit,, try and apriciate what he wants and see y he wants it, Then also think its not the end of the world when he's gone coz that jus no good for no1. Just relax about the whole thing a little,,, try and go with a flow rather than curve things into the way u want them coz that usally causes backlash the other way round.. just let things go their own way and pay attention to him,, if he starts warming to u jus let him know subtly that its what u want and if he shy's away just say "fair nough" and think its not the end of the world and carry on and brush it under the carpet a little.. but definately just keep calm and its obvious that u love him and what-not here,,, but just think a little bit on how u come across about it a little and jus remember he wants little pressure from u as possiable and if he wants his space,, let him have it nice and easy and he'l come back to u sooner or later.. and keep looking forward with these things,, look to the next time he'l be about and not that he's currently gone.
Anyway, be strong in urself and 'chill winston'.. :p get me?
Look after urself
I am a bit concerned though that he knows how you feel about him and that he does not return your feelings and yet he still spends all this time with you. It is possible that he is uncertain about how he feels about you, but it is not fair to you for him to basically try to spend a lot of time with you in an attempt to decide where he stands. If he is certain that he is not interested in you and yet does what he apparently has been doing you are being abused, plain and simple. No friend, no person that cares about you the way you care about this guy would do that to you. A wise person once told me that people's decisions only reflect themselves and not the people that they affect. That's been a hard lesson to absorb but I believe it with all my heart. And I truly do feel your pain, I am there with you right now and it's not a good place...as one of my favorite songs says, "it's time to smart smiling, what else should we do?" All my love...
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