I want to help other people but cannot help myself.
Hi
My name is David and I am 17. I live in a run down area of Glasgow and well going outside is just asking for trouble. I am so scared to leave the house day or night, morning or afternoon because i know the boys wait around for me to well use as a football is the easiest way to put it :( Kicks, punches, bricks, poles,, you name it and they have had a go at me with it and i don't understand why. i have always been bullied but never understood what they have against me. I try to get along with people but i think they are scared of being seen with me because they may feel they will take a beaten aswell. I just found this website tonight and am really glad i did. My dads an alcholic and is at the pub most of the day which means i do everything around the house. With doing all that and Trying to avoid the idiots who take pleasure from hurting me i am struggling in school. I am finding it hard to keep up withthe course work because even in school they are there and i do my best to avoid all of them. i take much longer in getting home than what i should because i take detours to avoid them. I feel like the world closes in around me at time and am not affraid to say i have cried myself to sleep at night before. I can stand up for myself but not against so many people because if i fight back then my windows will get smashed in and who knows what else. I have the ambition to really help people in life. I wanna help give people the chance to live a full healthy life, i wanna lend an ear to people when they need it and help people through problems who need it. Make people feel good about themselfs because no one in this world should be made to feel bad and because of my experiences i wanna help others lke me. I really wanna help people get through the problems they face.
Story shared: 29/12/2006 01:26:17
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i live just on the border of london, there r still a lot in my area that can be anal holes and i love to walk but got so terrified even when kids of like 9 would hurle abuse at me, but these boys that used to bully me in school, all got there mopeds and was out on the streets a lot, speeding, abusing people i wasn't the only one, but they knew i would be an easy target....
i told my counciler and my boyfriend knew about it... my counciler definately did somthing about cos b4 i knew it the police were patrolling the streets where they would hang, and then when i walked passed with my boyfriend, we'd see the police talking to them banning them from hanging around, and would make sure they moved on. now i can walk down that street by myself feeling less threaten altho i still get my boyfriend most of the time to come get me and take me home u know.
the only other thing was my boyfriend passing on the message to local bikers who hate bullys especially bunch of boys picking on a girl.... they would soon sort them with a taste of there own medicine.
and i must say a guy like u should go far in this world, u definately sound like the type of dude that i'd be friends with...
Hopes This Helps and Good Luck
ps. helping people has it's reward and whether u have faith in god, gardian angels, fairys, an inaginary friend ( a good one of course) or even just karma.... it'll be there. u get me? (well it's something i believe in)
and no matter what u can still help people, i know feeling more stable helps but if u really want to help others, nothing can stop u. not even satan....
but yeh Good Luck anyways TinkaBells xx
Have you spoken to the school ?,
if you want to talk email at aut2mate AT ntlworld.com
BE STRONG , BE YOURSELF, YOU ARE BETTER THAN THEM
I want to first thank you for being so brave and honest about what is happening to you at this time and for sharing your experiences.
You say you want to help people who are in the same situation as your self, to be there to lend an ear, you may not realize this Davied but just by sharing your story with others you are doing it.
There are not many people out here who are honest or brave enough to do what you have done.
I was abused bullied and battered from an early age like you i never really understood why it was happening to me and even now i still cant make sense of it, but i survived it and you will to.
My advice to you is to stand up to them.
I know given the circumstances that it is going to be difficult, but you can do it.
Once these thugs realise that they cant beat you down they will soon leave you alone.
Davied believe in yourself and your abilities and you will get through this. take care and be strong
For your dad, all I can say is endevour not to be like him.
good luck
I didn't believe her and like you say found it difficult but looking back it was the best advice.... You sound intelligent and smart I'm sure you can act!...That's what I did ( this sounds pathetic) but I pretended I had a superfit friend and the he was walking behind me the next time I passed them I ignored their comments looked them directly 'knowing' that I was protected guess what it made a difference it stopped and funnier still I kept up the imaginary friend - no-one knows I'm shy anymore, and to meet me you'd never know I'd been bullied and terrified. bullies pick on insecurities and with the problems you have at home that will have affected your confidence, seek help there... If possible move - look after yourself.... You're worth it.
xxx
i hope u get tho this n i hope the best in ur life most 17 years olds r doin bad things ur lucky ur not one off dem be converdent in urself n be proud dnt listen to them becoz one day u will be higher then them n dey will watch u from dwn. all the best
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