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I feel pathetic

HI everyone,
Im a 19 year old man, and i feel pathetic. I cant get a job, ive never had a girlfriend and all i do all day is watch tv and exercise. The reason i cant get a job and a girlfriend is because i feel anxious all the time, I blush around anyone, even my family and these have lead to me having no confidence and no self-esteem whatsoever.

Im always thinking "what do they think of me", "i bet they think im weird", and things like that are going through my head all the time when im near anybody, and its really getting me down. I always think ive said someting wrong or i havent said enough, and it makes me feel really bad because people might think i dont like them because i dont know what to say.

I struggle to make new friends and to socialise because i always feel nervous and in the spotlight for some reason. I dont know why all this has started because when i was younger i was quite confident in myself, i just wish i could feel confident about myself again.

Ive needed to tell someone this for 3 years but never plucked up the courage to tell someone, even now though as i write this im feeling anxious and worried about what you might think of me.

I wish i could tell my family this but i dont think they would believe me because they just think im lazy and useless. Even if i thought they would believe me though i would get to axious to tell them.
If your reading this and feel the same as me i wish you all the best in life and thanks for listening to me.

Story shared: 30/05/2009 11:17:10

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#1 by bre ~ on 01/06/2009 01:44:46 (id-1621).
hope everything works out ookay ! :D

#2 by tom on 04/06/2009 11:14:07 (id-1624).
thanks :)

#3 by kathy. on 09/06/2009 00:52:26 (id-1628).
sounds like u've got some kind of inferiority complex going on there. I can relate in some ways cause as a kid in school I had absolutely no confidence nd thought most people were better than me. now I see every one as equal nd on level ground. I reckon u should get a book on how to improve your confidence and self esteem. U could even go as far as nipping round to the doctors and asking if its possible to refer u to some other kind of specialist. There is plenty of help out therwe for you. and I know u may feel uncomfortable asking for it. but most of the people u could ask u r unlikely to even see again.
heres a good site that can help with all sorts of things.
It will lead u to the inferiority complex page. not saying u have that but it may help if u read it.
www .2knowmyself.com/Inferiority/inferiority_complex

good luck x :)

#4 by tom on 11/06/2009 01:32:12 (id-1633).
thanks 4 the help, ill check out the website :)

#5 by Samantha on 17/06/2009 15:46:47 (id-1642).
You story really touched me.
I'm 18 and in a similar position. I'm a painfully shy person who always worries about things. But I suppose you just have to take everyday as it comes.
I wish you all the best and hope things look up for you.

#6 by Sanjay on 22/06/2009 08:55:16 (id-1660).
Hi im 20 and i feel the same... i even go to university and i think it has got me even more down in the dumps. I dont know why.. but recently ive just been feeling lonely and its really bugging me.

Hope it all works out for you

#7 by tom on 22/06/2009 22:16:38 (id-1662).
Thanks for the comment samantha and sanjay :). I really hope everything works out for u both :)

#8 by s on 30/06/2009 07:00:10 (id-1673).
ok stop worry about what "they are thinking" because in the end it doesn't matter you matter. so just think "fuck them" if they like you then cool life is good if they don't like you then they can go to hell. Be a person that does not care! only focus on your life like what do I have to do for my job? or do I need to get gas.

#9 by Adam on 17/07/2009 22:24:11 (id-1749).
Mate I really thought I was the only person who thought the same as you. My advice I could give you is sign up to some kind of messageboard or forum Are you a football fan? Or perhaps a pop band you love?

#10 by Jamie on 16/10/2009 20:38:56 (id-1935).
I can relate to those feelings. Keep trying to be the person you want to be. All the best man!

#11 by Gulshan on 25/05/2010 21:02:33 (id-2452).
Awwwwwww, well atleast you dont have hairy feet like me. I get little kids to play games with my feet.

#12 by fatty on 30/08/2010 01:35:53 (id-2805).
u shud go to the doctors who can refer you to a psychaitrist, adn can talk abt ur life and maybe find where the anxiety started adn tht. adn maybe u can get anxiety pills to help u relax, if its really tht bad and u cant function or do social activities and cant face life and people u need 2 b referred to a psychaitrist, theres nothing wrong with having 1 its just so u can talk abt wher it strted and overcome the prob.good luck!

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