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Low Self Esteem

I feel I have a very low self esteem. If you met me you proably wouldn't think it, which makes it more difficult for me to express to my friends. I am successful in my career (to a point), good looks (as i'm told), good at sports, have great friends and girlfriend. But for some reason all these things I take for granted and still manage to feel like i'm worthless.
As a youngster, my father died and my mother was and has always been a negative influence on the decisions i make. Even if I am good at something - she'll downplay it like a trained monkey could do the same.
So I have doubts over what I say, do or feel all the time. It affects my sleep, health, relationships to the point where I just want to lock my self in my flat and watch TV all day in a semi catatonic state so that I will not have to meet anyones (percieved) expectations. On the positive side my girlfriend has got me off the weed, which has helped some, but it did take the edge off and helped me forget... now i'm just trying to find the right outlet in which to keep my mind off my negative thoughts because at the moment, I can't even manage to read a book to its end without having the negative thoughts.

Story shared: 29/11/2006 18:08:52

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#1 by DiIsFly on 30/11/2006 17:40:07 (id-330).
Hi low self esteem. You mention that your girlfiend has got you off the weed. I used to smoke weed everyday and after a few (too many) years I found that it was making me depressed and affecting my self confidence. Now that you are off it, perhaps you need to find something new to fill up your spare time? I know it's really cliche, but how about trying a new sport, starting a night class or something? With regards to those negative thoughts why do you doubt what you say and do? Do you believe that you are a "good" person in the traditional sense, i.e. you treat others with consideration, you don't abuse aninmals, you give things your best shot? If so, why are you negative? Seems like you are wasting your time worrying too much about everything rather than getting on with it. Also you've got a girlfriend, so you can't be all that bad :-) Chin up, stop worrying life is way too short.

#2 by Hand Solo on 30/11/2006 17:42:40 (id-331).
If you feel like you are worthless it will make you worthless. Believe that you are great and great things will come of it.

#3 by Christopher John on 10/12/2006 22:54:33 (id-345).
Hey
Thank you for coming on here and pleased that you have already received some support. Sorry that it has taken me a while to reply and leave a message.
I hope that you continue to receive some support and your life takes a good upward turn.
Best wishes
Chris

#4 by Henry V on 13/12/2006 14:14:50 (id-348).
Who decided what kind of day you had today? You did! The greatest power you have is to choose your own thoughts so don't give it away whatever happens. We all talk to ourselves, we are our own hardest critics and store negative stuff in our heads . . . . until the day when we throw out the negative voices and replace them with new invited guests who love us and praise our efforts! So start talking smart to yourself. Congratulate yourself for trying new things and not fearing failure or put-downs from others. Avoid toxic people who feed off the wrongs in the world. Start getting pleasure from the little things around you . . . the wonders of nature in your backyard, the joys of music, language, art. Wake up with a smile and choose to have a good day . . . whatever events occur, don't let them dominate your thoughts, unless you CHOOSE to reflect on them.

Try doing some voluntary work in a hospital . . . the positive people recover faster and still have fun.

" I used to complain I had no shoes, until I met a man with no feet" Step outside yourself and start helping others.

You will feel great in no time

#5 by cheap oem software on 12/02/2012 07:28:03 (id-6078).
prAnLw Informative, but not convincing. Something is missing but what I can not understand. But I will say frankly: bright and benevolent thoughts!...

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