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feeling lonely and shy and out of place and feel real low need serious help

it all started at the age of 11 where i had started school. i was always feeling low and out of place. and i had been feeling claustrophobic ever since. i never know what to do and always feel as if I'm the only one feeling this way. while everyone had something to say, i would be the one listening and thinking but not responding with my opinions. i became so depressed and down i started getting anxious and petrified. i keep feeling as if i am not good enough for anything. iv always felt left out. i was bullied at school which made it even worser. I'm so depressed that i cant seem to think positively about myself at all. iv had bad relationships. never went out because id get panic attacks and anxiety. always cries at nights and whenever theirs a sad song. i just dont know what to do anymore. always feeling isolated shy and uncomfortable in a crowd full of people. feel stupid and self pity. i cant get over anything. i keep thinking the worst of people because of paranoia.

Story shared: 11/11/2006 03:05:27

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#1 by Mat on 11/11/2006 11:42:44 (id-294).
Thats very similar to how i used to feel mate. It started about the same age too. I got bullied. I used to feel isolated, paranoid, depressed and sad constantly. I never thought it would get better and to be quite honest it never has in the past 5 or 6 years. I have learned to deal with it. I started going out and doing things. Not much at first but i built it up so i can go out a couple of times a week now. You will find friends but just make sure you find friends who understand you and care about you because these people play a big part in helping you through your problems. I made the fatal mistake of getting into friendship with people who are not, and never will be, deep enough to understand me. They turned their backs at the first sign of troubles. I now have mates that care. Thats what i need.

Im not sure if you get on well with your parents, but the first step is possibly seeing a counsellor. They help you temporarily. Ask your parents about this. You might be surprised at how much better you feel just by talking to someone. A counsellor will become your friend and they do understand. Try it.

Things might get better soon. I hope they do for you mate. Best wishes. Stay safe...

#2 by Franca on 20/11/2006 00:26:02 (id-307).
Life is a very scary place, but yet you need not feel afraid. You need others like you that you can relate to. Either by their stories or their strong will. Anxiety is a very lonely disease. But you don't need to feel alone. Keep talking, just you logging in to this site tells us all that you are willing to share, and thus get better. Most people with true anxiety and depression isolate themselves .

#3 by Christopher John on 20/11/2006 13:15:59 (id-312).
Hey there

Thank you for coming on and I hope that the comments that you have received already help.

Very best wishes to you

Chris

#4 by sara on 16/06/2007 03:44:31 (id-590).
I have never heard of or met anyone who feels as I do until now. I've never been able to explain the way I'm feeling to anyone, I keep it all to myself even thougth i feel i need help and just want to feel happy. I tried talking to a doctor about 5 years ago but cried so much I couldn't explain so I've never tried since. I lost my brother 6 years ago and I'm not sure if I felt this way before my loss or due to my loss as I just can't remember. I keep busy working full time, studying and bringing up my daughter and try very hard to put all my thoughts and sadness to the back of my mind. I would love to hear of a cure, then maybe i could relax more and enjoy life.

#5 by danielle on 14/03/2008 11:12:25 (id-913).
It seems to get worse if it is not 'dealt with' though I am not sure how to do that.
Best wishes...

#6 by クレジットカード　現金化 on 21/09/2008 14:54:13 (id-1184).
よく練られた。

#7 by ラフティング on 21/09/2008 15:52:37 (id-1196).
見てよ。

True life stories.

feeling lonely and shy and out of place and feel real low need serious help

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