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It cuts like a Knife

Im sitting here thinking , i'm sad for even going on this site . But today i had a emotional breakdown.
My partner of two years cheating again , this is the fourth time , well i say cheated , but he claims they didnt have sex. He doesnt understand me and i ask myself everyday why are you still with him . He has a daughter a muliptive baby mother, who will do everything and anything to destroy our relationship. For example today she dropped his daughter off at his mothers, claiming that he will pick her up as he is having her for the weekend, but yet im having this emotional meltdown , breakdown and he rushes off to see his daughter. You may think im being selfish , but this is the first time i have asked him to choose , i needed him , this one time , i just wanted him to confort me , but he cant even do that. I feel lost , hurt betrayed , sucidal , i actually feel like im going insane , i just want the pain to stop , i wnat to be enough for someone ( as all my life i feel like i havnt been enough). I wnat to pack my bags and leave him , but where do i go , i have no money , and i cant go to friends or family, i feel so alone , im hurting and the person i love most , isn even here to comfort me , hold me , tell me its going to be ok . Tell me why i put up with this i ask, because i recieve no support from him , and again you ask ,its simple just leave him , i know now that i should go , but i have no idea how to .

Story shared: 11/11/2006 01:21:08

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#1 by sympathetic ear on 11/11/2006 03:11:36 (id-293).
i can see your situation iv been through that too. i think you should find some time to sit and talk away from everything and tell him how you feel. thats the only way to resolve things. i know your frustrated and feel lonely and upset. probably paranoid that he will leave you too. it may seem selfish but its not. he has a right to be wit his daughter. but if he truly loves you too then he should learn to compromise. but in a way you should understand where his coming from.

#2 by alison on 20/11/2006 12:15:03 (id-308).
hes rubbish u desive better than a low life that would even think about cheating on you oh yea n kick him in the balls till he cries :)

#3 by Christopher John on 20/11/2006 13:14:13 (id-311).
Thank you for coming on here and suppoirting the web site. I hope you receive some comments from people that can help.

Very best wishes

Chris
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#4 by Shel on 21/04/2008 23:09:30 (id-968).
It's tough I know I have been in a simular relationship too where my ex partner also constantly cheated on me. I lost all my confidence and self of esteem and I began to feel that he was the best I get and that I would not be able to find someone else who would treat me with the love and respect that every woman deserves. I left him eventually and I am much happier! I know this is going to be hard but please try to find that inner strength to change your life. Speak to your partner, tell him how your feeling and what/how you would your relationship to change/improve for the better (you coiuld also condisider joint councelling to reolve the issues you have). If he loves you then he will take on board what you have said and be willing to make it work for the both of you. If things don't improve in the future or they become worse then maybe for your own health and well being you should consider making that change and leaving him? It's hard I know but a realtionship is meant to be joyful, loving, and fun, it's not mean't to cause you unbeareable pain that you are experiencing. You say you haven't got friends or family to reley on, why is this? If you decide to leave but you don't have people you can go to immediately, then (if you have the time) and can remain at the property with him untill you can set youself up (secretly if needs be) then do so. Go to your local housing department they should provide advise on a range of housing options such as privately renting, renting from council and details of how to get help from them on raising money for deposits, paying your rent (if you dont work or only work part time) and so forth. If are you still unsure about things then visit your local citizens advise centre and explain your situation as they will be able to explain or refer to the all sorts of services that can assist you in terms of housing, benefits you may be entitled to (if you don't work) such as housing benefit (to pay your rent), employment, training and grants/funding to help you set up home, and other services if you have children. There is help out there so please don't suffer in silence. Maybe you should also consider seeing your doctor if you are feeling depressed or even councelling to help you deal with your feelings too! Once You deserve to be treated with love and repect so don't give up hope! Good luck!

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It cuts like a Knife

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