What Now???
Hello, I'm 15 years old and struggling terribly....I feel as if it has been going on for so long, and I don't know what to do anymore. When I was 11 years old my parents divorced. This affected me greatly, however I don't think I realised it at the time. When I was 13 I started having issues about my weight. I lost a lot and parents got v. worried etc etc. "Mild" anorexia and deppression over the next year. Then when I started eating properly again I couldn't control it, started binging a lot and put on a lot of weight. January this year, when I hit 15, I made some big descions that it all had to stop. I did so well, I lost weight, got down to a really good weight, got really positive and strong. I was so proud of myself, and now its all falling down on me again. I'm binging, feeling deppressed, putting on weight. I don't know what to do with myself, I don't know how to stop. All I think about is food, and I can't believethis is happening all over again. I feel so fat (is 8st7lbs at5ft4 big?) and I have such low self esteem. I know I am only 15 and I have so farto go, that this is probably nothing, but it seems like everything, and I can't stand the world being on my shoulders anymore. I want it to stop so bad. I thought I was one of those people who believed that beauty lies within. but I am so obsessed with body image. Is this just a phase? All I want is to be in control. Arrrggghh, it's killing me.
But anyway, any ideas?
keep strong, shine on
xxxxxxx
Poppy
Story shared: 09/11/2006 16:26:59
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Fundamentally only you can decide how you view food and weight. But you might find it helpful to read some books by Geneen Roth - really useful - and there is also a very useful book / ecourse / workshop called Beyond Chocolate (you can search for the site for more information). I really hope these help you & best wishes.
you need to start focusing on your inner self abit more i think,your ability to make friends and so on look around you i bet you have loads of friends and i bet they all secretly want to be you! if you spend too much time worrying about what you look like you will never have chance to have fun and be young i know everyone says this but seriously your only young once !! go out and rave it up have fun!! once you become rapped up in having fun you wont even think about what you look like and you'll probably find people will start to complement you on how great you look because you will be full of life1 TRUST!!!!
Sorry that I have not posted a comment sooner. It seems that you have already had some posting which it really good. I hope that this helps and you get and achieve what you want. Thank you so much for posting on here and supporting this web site
with love, help and very best wishes
Chris
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I'm 16, and my parents also divorced when i was around 11, it was a very very long divorce process. It did really affect me and i was sad and depressed for about 2 years. Then my mum finally moved out and things got better. For you i would recommend just finding a hobby to take your mind away from things, i found music. If you are truly worried about your weight then find an athletic hobby, just finding somewhere nice to walk or skipping or something. This will take your mind away from your weight and hopefully make you feel better about yourself. Good luck :)
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