My Crap Life... lol
Im 14 and i seriously hate my life for several reasons. Firstly I really hate my mum or 'the bitch' as i like to call her. (lol) I can't even stand to be in the same room as her. My mum and dad splt before i was born and then she marryed a dude called bob i reely loved him but they split aswell. i was still seeing my dad but he was always in and out of hospital as he had schitzophrenia (if thats how you spell it :S) Then the worst happend my dad killed himself :'( this was 3 and a half years ago :(. I reely dont think my mum knows that im still grieving for him as shes always having a go at me for little things and every day we shout at eachother i no its me aswell as her but want to like her agen instead off hatin her guts. She shouts at me when my friends are round which reeely embarreses me and i just get the feelin that she reely duzunt give a sh*t about me. Last friday she left me alone all night without tellin me she was doing so( i wouldn't have minded otherwise ) i was expecting her back about 11, her phone was swiched off so i was getting worrried the thing that reely p*s*ed me off was that she came home in the morning at half 11 and just simply sed 'hi'. at that point i flipped at we had a massive argument (agen). And then this week i wanted to go out with my friends but my mum was goin out her self so i sed can i stay by myself and she sed no i dont feel safe with you staying by your self all nite. again i flipped :@. Why did she do it in the first place if she didnt feel I felt safe ?? Anyways ... Secondly i hardly ever see my half brother. before my dad died him and his partner had a baby , James i love him so much but hardly ever see him :( ive seen him once in the last 3 months which reely isnt enough, his couzins see him more than me.( i proboly would have seen him more ive dad hadent died). Last off all im still finding it reely hard coping with losing my dad. i had counsiling for the first 6 months but i dont think it reely helped at all. I just reely want a normal family... i reely love my friends and my brother and the rest of my family but I just dont no what to do ( im thinking off asking to live with my grandma) ; im also woried if i have kids then they could also have schitzophrenia (we think it skipped a generation , so my greatgrandad had it also)
Any Help???????? i cud use it.
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Story shared: 26/09/2008 13:33:34
#361 View the comments about this story life - Hate - Mums - schitzophrenia - Dad died - crap
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