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I've had enough

I need some advice, I dont know if anyone can help me. but il get straight to the point. I'm 19, boyfriend and i tried for a baby as i was told i couldn't have any as i got older, I got pregnant, and he said he changed his mind, he's 25 and i think should know better, how can he say that because his opinion has changed it justifies an abortion. So i'm keeping this baby, i dont know if il get another chance and we wanted it. No i'm losing him, i know my head is telling me to let him go, but my heart is breaking, im so fedup and down, very hormonal, but all i want to do is cry, I've thought about ending everything, cos' maybe things will be easier if none of this ver happened. I want my life back to 3 months ago when we were happy. I forgot to mention my family are supportive, but i find it hard to explain how i feel. and maybe im just being selfish in still wanting a relationship, but i cant help my feeling and im so confused. Please help me i dont know what else to do........?????

Story shared: 29/10/2006 22:19:41

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#1 by Emma on 05/11/2006 23:01:21 (id-285).
Even though we're young, it still hurts. You'll see that in time, he's either good for you or he isn't, and I know you'll make the right choice. Whatever you do, do not end everything. I myself tried to, thank God nothing in the room was sharp enough, because i was trying so hard to that i would have killed myself. Don't do it-you have your child's life to look forward to, as well as your own, and you'll see that when you're older, you will be glad that you didn't do it.

#2 by Christopher John on 08/11/2006 18:37:31 (id-288).
Thank you for coming onto the site. I am sorry that you are confused and are having a rough trot. I hope everything goes well with your pregnancy and you get comments and help that is needed.

Best wishes, love and luck, Chris x

#3 by alison on 20/11/2006 12:22:27 (id-309).
you go ahead and have that baby even without him he sounds like a prick

#4 by Sarah on 18/12/2006 22:07:09 (id-358).
Hello again, I just wanted to say thankyou for the lovely comments, i found out a few things and can say i have also added more experiences to my life. Alison you were right he is a prick, after trying to tell him how much he meant to me and how much i loved him he still threw things back in my face, I was abused when i was younger and he said that i brought that on mydelf too. he's now changed his mind about an abortion and would like to fight for custody with me. To help his case, he decided that he wants me out of the house by new year, what a lovely xmas!! I'm finding it hard to come to terms but don't want to feel sorry for myself. I've tried to find a sutable home to bring up my child, although council couldn't help because i'm lodging and don't have proof of residency - so trying private, but renting is so expensive, i am in full time employment, but on my salary i simply dont know how il cope. I have up and down moments, but trying my best to just carry on. I still have thoughts of suicide but then think of my family - i couldn't hurt them like that, especially this side of xmas. I love them too much to put them through that, most of all my little sister, she's really looking forward to being an auntie. I just wish i were as excited as she is. Some people do look at me and frown - oh another teenage mother. All i know is that i'm going to do my best, if thats not good enough then what is. I don't need money to love my baby and if thats all i have to give, then my baby will hopefully one day understand. Also just to let you know i went for scan 3 weeks ago, baby is really healthy, was kicking and punching, (wish i could feel it) and is due 9th June. Again thank you all x x

#5 by x- billie -x on 30/04/2007 20:23:53 (id-551).
i know i may not understand how your feeling as much. but have you tried looking at your situation from a different point of view. you say yourself you are hormonal. maybe its just the hormones making you feel that way. maybe its not the real you thinking through ..... good luck hope everything goes well...you will be fine and when your baby is born you will have a new very speshal someone with you. xxx

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