Everything is wrong
I'm 13 years old and just finished my first year in Secondary school, and all I can think of most of the time is how much I hate my mum.
Things are awful at home. My dad lives in England with his wife and her two sons and I hate her aswell. She is always out to get me whenever I see him. She won't even let me have a phone conversation with him when I am not there.
I found my dad getting married really tough and my mum just keeps telling me to forget it.
I know that my mum must find this tough, but she doesn't understand that I do too.
I also just did my first set of yearly exams. Now, in my mind these arn't important, but for the month before them, my mum wouldn't get off my back. I couldn't study with her looming over the whole time...
Most of my results were B's, and I was really happy when my report card came home, but she just kept comparing me to the people in my class who got A's etc. That ended my optimism on my results.
My mum is an alcoholic... She won't stop at night, and I'm the one who has to deal with it. Every time I confront her about it she threatens me... I'm scared of her when she's like that.
My mum is also on pills because she and my late grandad have a certain form of depression. I'm scared if I don't look out for my mum she'll kill herself. She told me once that when my brother died (at birth) she tried to jump off the balcony but my dad stopped her.
Now with him gone... I just don't know...
I'm also worried that I might get that form of depression because it is genetic...
And now i'm having massive problems with a girl at school. When we were 9 years old we were best friends. Now she has turned on me and always puts me down. Especially about my horse. (Please don't think i'm some helpless rich kid because there are days when we don't have enough money to get through the weekend.)
I love my horse for him, and not for competitions etc. unlike my 'friend' and everything I achieve with him, my 'friend' puts down.
Also, whenever I go to see my dad, he acts like a different person. He isn't the dad I loved. I miss the old him, so, SO much.
I am an only child so I can't talk to any siblings...
My family arn't close enough, and I'm worried about speaking to my friends...
Please help me!
Story shared: 06/07/2008 20:09:00
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