Splitting up with Husband
Right I have been married nearly 7 years and my marriage as come to an end. It hasnt been easy from the start, my husband has been lazy, inconsiderate, unfaithful, unsupportive and controlling. Its my 2nd marriage, my first marriage ended in divorce after 6 years. I didnt want it to end this way but Im sick to death of living with controlling and selfish men who think i am their property and they can do what they like with me. I was upset a few days ago but Im not now, I feel my decision is for the best because if I stay in this marriage I cant see a future only myself being miserable and unhappy, so its best I leave. I have thought long and hard about this decision and its not something I have taken lightly. I want to feel alive again, make my own choices and be what I want to be and not the person that this man wants me to be. Its not about winning or losing or money, its about peace of mind and being able to sleep at night being me, being myself, feeling alive and feeling good about myself again. I havent felt good about myself for years and years. I have become depressed and have lost my confidence. It seems that the worse I feel then the happier he has been. His own confidence and superiority grows off my suffering. I have become increasingly withdrawn from society, my family and friends are far away. I have allowed myself to become totally dependent on this man who has enjoyed feeling important and controlling me. He hasnt been physically abusive or hit me, its not that but its all about power, he likes to be in control, have me totally dependent on him for money and everything but not no more. I need to leave, to get out from here and find myself again. Its going to be tuff but its something I have to do..
Story shared: 29/03/2008 18:31:04
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