in love with my teacher..?
i've read a lot of terrible stories on here, and mine can't really compare, but i thought i'd share anyway. i just hope i won't be judged.
well when i was fifteen, i had this really amazing teacher at school. he was just absolutely wonderful, sweet, funny, kind, and held such charisma that i think it would be impossible for anyone to hate him.
and he had such charm, i'm not surprised i fell for him..
anyway, it was just a crush at first, but then my feelings grew really strong. and towards the end of the year, i found out he was leaving. and on the last day, i realized that i was in love with him.
when school ended and the holidays started, i felt so crushed that he had gone and i would never see him again. i felt really depressed and he was all i thought about every minute of every day for weeks.
eventually i stopped feeling like that constantly but since then i've gone through a cycle of missing him so much it hurts unbelievably, to missing him moderately, then mildly, then so much again.
im now seventeen and sometimes i wonder if i'll ever get over him.
i know it seems weird to think that i'm in love with my teacher, or someone who was my teacher, so just think of him as a man. i know it's hard to believe i fell in love with someone who i didn't know deeply, and sometimes i question it, but thats only because of these doubts posed by my mind. all i know is what i feel in my heart and that is that i love him and i miss him; and this pain is unendurable.
Story shared: 28/02/2008 22:20:26
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we dont choose who we love, unfortunately.
u've done nothn bad. u just need to try and calm ur feelings...i dnt know how...and i knwo its gna be difficult...but jst take everythn one day at a time...
am sure ur teachers charming in everyway uve described...but sometimes we need to be strong and realise what may be and what may not...
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