How do I get through the misery?
I suppose that I am just feeling so very sorry for myself but oh I feel that I cannot cope with the feeling of utter desolation that I am feeling. Today after many many months of a tempestuous relationship it has finally ended. How pathetic this sounds to me just typing it, but I cannot fught the feeling of loneliness and anger and frustration at this happening. This has happened many timed befor within this relationship but this time it feels so real. The crazy thing is that I have endured much much more than this in my life. My 17 year marriage ended when my husband had an affair and broke my heart. launching me into a pit of despair that I never thought I would climb out of. Then when I finally did along came this man who has now left me once again with my heart broken. JI have no-one. No friends or family to lean on. MY mother died in the middle of this reletionship and my father cannot cope with his grief let alone mine. My children are my pride nad joy but loneliness is not about how many people you have in your life, it is about a place in side you that is empty. A place which I have yet been able to fill and that is why I aould not settle with this man. He was not the one and that is why it didnt work. It never would have because I always knew that he didnt fill that space.
The question still remains though? How does one get through this misery stage? And how do I ever fill that space?
Story shared: 13/01/2008 17:02:52
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