True life stories.

Allways there for others but still alone

They say that to beat lonliness you need to find something you enjoy doing. Well I have a hobby that is enjoyable in lot of ways and I have lots of aquaintences. However I can be surrounded by people who like me as a person BUT I still feel Lonely and unwanted.
I get given compliments and encouragement all the time but I cant trust this because it doesnt mean anything to me because I have no one to share it with.
I listen to others problems and have nearly allways been told that me just being there to listen helped.
But I allways am wishing that there was someone there for me
and then that makes me feel guilty.
Its hard most of the time thinking that theres all these peolple but no one for me.
I sometimes wonder if I would be really missed if I wasnt there at all. They would get on with their own lives as before.
I am trying to get out of this rut (this latest stage has lasted 17 years) but its very difficult.
Sometimes when things happen thats bad I wish I had someone who would just give me a hug to take all the pain away.

lonliness stinks

Story shared: 05/01/2008 01:07:03

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#1 by Shandy.... on 05/01/2008 16:48:13 (id-833).
I need a hug ... Come give me on :)

#2 by Will on 07/01/2008 16:17:18 (id-834).
i understand, i can totally relate with what you've wrote.

#3 by midlands girl on 12/01/2008 10:07:30 (id-844).
people can be very selfish without realising that they are even doing it. Everyone seems to be so wrapped up in their own problems that they dont give others a second thought. I am going through a similar situation myself. Its like other peoples problems seem to be much more important than ours and we are not important at all, no one seems to care for ours, we are just left to get on with things. Well I give you a big hug and think you are a really brave strong person who deserves all the love in the world. You need to put yourself first from now on. Look after number one, dont burden yourself with the problems of people who dont care for you, look after the ones who look after you. Best of wishes x

#4 by Rob UK on 12/01/2008 23:15:08 (id-850).
I am in the same predicament, have been for 20 years, I will help anyone, and I do mean anyone that needs help. I always do the 'right thing', I never take advantage of people, I am always honest and I am not greedy. Yet what happens, if I dare to step out of the door every malevolent being that ever stalked this earth is there waiting for me, seeing kindness as weakness, and me as an easy prey. I am not weak though and I don't even know what anger is, but when they realise that they can't get one over on me they back off. The problem is that there are no friends for me, not one, nothing. The problem with that is that when you have no friends then no one wants to be your only friend, so everyone keeps away. It's a vicious circle, a self tightening noose, and reading elsewhere on here about people in this situation, the entry that they made was the last thing these people did on this earth. I just wish there was a place that we could all go, just walk in the door and know that we all knew what living like this is like. I can never get my head around the fact that even the most obnoxious people I have met have friends, lots of friends, and that for me is the bigegst mystery of all?

#5 by lonely person on 06/04/2008 17:06:20 (id-945).
this may seem a littlt extreme but from what i have experienced in life nice people always finnish. last. i have always been willing to go out of my way for others but when i need them no one seems 2 notice .im always the one for other people to talk 2. i try to be the funny person and now everybody feels they can take the constant piss out of me coz im that joker she doesnot gt upset its only a joke . im sick of being judged without people actually gettin 2 know me . my advise look after number 1 coz at the end of the day you only have one life so do what you want be who you want

True life stories.

Allways there for others but still alone

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