Its better to have loved and Lost... Than to never.... (Shandy)
I am currently Studying at university in london...
Life is good, the options have limited appeal...
I have succesfully dug myself out of the dark lonly hole we find ourselves in sometimes...
I am 19 and my long term girlfriend, who i lived with broke up with me in a nightmarish situation that happened near the end of summer 2007...
It all started when my friend killed himself... Guy shoved a bag over his head and suffocated himself to death... That was on valentines day...
Then in the summer my apartment got flooded out,
i lost everything...
My ex had just moved out but we were still togeather...
My brother was living with me...
He abandoned me and left me to deal with the mess...
I was working at the time... Overtime... About 50+ hours a week...
On my free time i managed to go back up north to see my Lovely girl...
Ended up... She broke up with me... And i found out she was uh... Up to no good with my best friend... Was nightmarish seeing as i had to stay around the area, and although it wasnt rubed in my face... I kept stumbling across the evidence... which was uh... Disheartening to say the least... Ended with violence at a music festival when he broke my nose... Think he was on something... Cause to this day, he and i have no idea why he did it...
The result was... Me literally broken... Everything i came to believe ... Shattered.... Never thought my lovely girl would do that... Not to me... Foolish i know this now... (She poor girl, had a lot of problems)
The way i try to see it... The flower you love... you dont pick... you wanna see it prosper in its surroundings... So i just hope... the decisions she makes... Makes her happier... And if things are better for her... Its all good, life is too short for me to hate her... Although it does hurt... You gotta feel the downs to feel the ups... (If you expect to be happy all the time... the probability is that you wont)
I went back to London, to sought my life out....
Then on returning home the next time... I was assaulted badly by a large group of lads... (So the police say... i still remember nothing)
And ended up in hospital with severe head injuries... I stayed in bed for a week.... My visible injuries went quickly .... Although ive only just recovered from the anxiety attacks and the headaches, looking at me... Apart from a few scars on my forehead... you wouldnt even know it had happened... The real problem was... It made me behind at university, really pushed me back... Which was a bit naff... And there i stewed in my depression... The problem with depression is...its a downward spiral... Unless you get youself out of it.... Everything becomes worse... and worse... and worse still... I myself found comfort in the Tao... I threw myself out into the world, and surrounded myself with good peopleand friends... Made myself busy, i threw out the old... and rebuilt myself, into somebody i am happy with...Most the time... I am me... Only better... And after the last year... I am pretty sure... Whatever anybody throws at me... Im gonna make it... Success is the best revenge... I hope my story is worth the read... And i wish the best to everyone out there... Much love always... Shandy
Please excuse my unusual style with all the ... Im just writing as i think... Hope its not too difficult to follow.
Story shared: 03/01/2008 01:38:15
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yours is basicly like that too... as in everyone was bad things going on like gf cheating or whatever, and then sometimes, basicly what is unlucky is some people get a whole heap of stuff all at once.
I like that you are trying to be happy and surrounding yourself whith that i'm trying that and it works, but it's also fusturating because i have depressed friends who just refuse to do anything and i get thatt it's hard but yeah, it's kinda annoying...
anyway this is a bit of a rant sorry, don't think i helped, though it dosn't look like you need it much :)
much love xox
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