Too lonely to live
I'm alone and unwanted. I have been for as long as I can remember. I always have been, I always will be.
I've heard all the "someone for eveyone" lies, but isn't it funny how that particular platitude always comes from people who have someone. Try spending 42 years alone because nobody wants you (and I mean *nobody*).
Next time you're about to tell someone there's "someone for eveyone" just stop and ask yourself "do I truly KNOW for a fact that there's someone for this person, or am I lieing to them to make myself feel better". If you KNOW there is someone for that person, then tell them who it is. And if you can't tell them who it is, then you can't know it for a fact. Tell them you BELIEVE that there is someone for everyone - that's a different thing. And once upon a time, many people believed that the earth was flat. So welcome to the flat earth society.
Too many people have told me that "someone for everyone" lie. Why do they hate me so much that they have to lie to me?
I can't go on any longer. Life is too cruel and painful. This is the end.
Goodbye cruel world. Nobody will even notice I'm gone.
Story shared: 28/09/2006 20:09:20
#20 View the comments about this story lonliness - desperation - suicide.
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Well thank you for finding the site, and more importantly thank you for sharing your thoughts with us. Simply by sharing this on the site, I guarantee that you are no longer alone, in your thoughts at least.
I hope you receive some lovely words of encouragement, support, and friendship as people read your thoughts.
With very best wishes, CJ
I'm sorry to hear how sad you feel about people who tell you "there's someone for everyone". You're right, they don't KNOW this, but they are wishing you well by saying it (even if you find this annoying !)
With best wishes -
Your story made my heart melt with compassion. I really believe that you feel the way you do because you dont have a clue about your own unique individual value. It seems you equate your value to having a partner. Believe me partners can bring there own baggage with them. Celbrate the freedom to be yourself and Celbrate your Life Choose Life it takes less courage and guts than death.
i'm very lonely as well, but please please please, dont do anything to urself. its not worth it..
i'm going through the lonliness now thats why i came to this site..
please take care
liza xx
Take good care of yourself, it would be good if you could post another story, just to let us know you are still here x x x
Does anyone know how to stop the "pity party" that seems to go on constantly in my head. I lie down on the sofa thinking about all the things I could be doing, but the reality is I can't even be bothered to brush my teeth or take a shower.
For all the LONLEY I wish you hope.
Look after yourself and know that people, even if only people on this website are thinking of you and hope you are safe xxx
You need to learn to value yourself - ultimately other people will always be a let down. Be true to yourself, you have the freedom to be as you are without compromise. To be loved or to love others limits your freedom. Everything you do has to then be a compromise.
I can understand the despair you feel and it is very real - but having the love of others makes no difference ultimately. You need to stop rationalising. Feelings are not sensible or logical - even if you can make others love it is only a temporary high and does not give you a long term sense of self worth.
I hope I'm wrong, so TLTL please let us now how you are!
To everybody else I'd like to say: stay safe
"If you feel like things can't get any worse, realise that they can only get better"
I hope I'm wrong, so TLTL please let us now how you are!
To everybody else I'd like to say: stay safe
"If you feel like things can't get any worse, realise that they can only get better"
the truth is we live in a society where happiness is frowned upon. So many people are so miserable , if you are happy it irritates them no end , sort of the "if I am miserable how dare he be bappy therefore let me try and screw it up"
As far as partners go well good luck there because the truth is looks count in reality and you always have the fat friend to screw things up, you know where I am coming from
So with women be your self, just remember that they will be people out there to make you miserable , smile look up look around and just remember life is shitty but every so often something great happens it does trust me
So give yourself a pat on the back , u have made it to 42 and still going strong
Ciao man
Just because women treat this guy (and the rest of us) like s**t, don't assume that he doesn't "value himself" or think that he's worthwhile; that's simply bs. Accept that your actions have an impact on others; Just because you wouldn't be seen dead with him, doesn't mean he has "low self-esteem" (how I hate that expression - me, I have more SELF-esteem and SELF-confidence than you can imagine, but then again, it's not me that won't date me, is it? I'd put money on it that it's the same with this geezer. (Apart from anything else, actually READ the way he writes; correct grammar, spelling and punctuation - I know this is the 21st century, so those may all considered archaic - but we're not talking to a moron here. Writing (even on the web) is a lost art - read, larn and inwardly digest. Lather, rinse repeat.
When you're an ugly old man, it doesn't matter how funny you are, how smart you are, how well traveled, educated, read or wealthy you are. All that matters to women is what you look like. And since some of us don't look like Robert Redford, we're doomed to be alone forever.
And all those of you who say "I have someone, but it isn't perfect" make me heave. If is sucks so much the f*****g leave. But of course, then you'd be on your own - and that's what you criticise this poor guy for - for not wanting to be alone. Tell you what - find a dictionary, and look up the word "hypocrite". You may find your name against the definition.
Duuuude, I seriously hope you found something or someone to make your life worthwhile. I didn't, and in a few minutes time I'll be taking the plunge from my window to the ground below. Nobody ever cared whilst I lived, but at least once I'm gone somebody will have to take notice (even if it's only to scrape me up off the sidewalk).
I wish you luck my friend, because maybe I'm the only one who's read this that has any comprehension of how you feel (I don't necessarily understand what you're going through per se, but I'm been alone since before they tried to get zoning approval for the pyramids, so I've got some inkling of your dilemma). Do you a deal: If you're already dead, then I'm on my way, so get the beer in. If you're not, I'll be waiting for you when you get here, and the first round is on me.
A lot of praying and positive thinking gets me through. I know that God is there for all of us. I tell myself there are so many people around the world today who their only task is finding food and drink and will probably not last the day and this helps me to change my attitude towards the problems that I face.
May God give you courage and hope to face your problems.
God bless you all
I was picked on, beaten up and excluded from most people and things, throughout school and even today. People assume on me that I am bad, or ugly, or not good enough for their company. Many times I get cast off to the side or knocked out, for things or comments that I have not even done, although they are convinced that I committed wrong to them. Through out my life, I have been deeply misunderstood, been misguided and lied too. At the same time though, I have turned much of this pain and frustration, into fuel and ammunition to excell and to prove these rats wrong. That they do not have me or would they ever have me! Only God does! 'If we honorably and selflessly take serious pride within ourselves first and for those who are dear to us, our spirits are clean, pure and genuine, only then will we achieve greatest victory within life's long and turbulent journey.' Very powerful and very true vision came to me back on christmas 2002. This verse just flows out of me to share with others. Personally, I am still struggling to understand, why I am not accepted for who I am. Professionally It the opposite, I have always done well. I work very hard and I am dependable and I am a person of my word and integrity. Believe it or not we are connecting. May the Lord truly bless you and make his face to shine upon you and be gracious onto you! May the lord grant unto you his peace! You are coming inn and your going out, your laying down and your are rising up! Until you come to stand before Jesus on this special day, where there will be no sunsets or dawnings, he will be glorious onto you for all of your days. Please stay strong, be yourself and love yourself first and formost. I have learned this very tough lesson! People are not capable of dealing with too much, much less their own matters! Whether it is one day, 5 minuetes, of 5 of 50 years, each and every contact we encounter brings us closer to finding the special one. Please do not try to chase it down! We must let it come to us, by making our environment the reflection off of ourselves, not the other way around. Thank you dearly giving me this chance to share some wisdom and deep care with the special one as well as all of you. Through this, I have also helped myself to feel better about my life and directions in it. Kind regards to you all.
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