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DESPERATE FOR CHANGE AND A FUTURE 2

I thought it would have helped me deal with things a lot better, after my last item, but since posting it, things have just got worse, and now today I have just reached a real low, the lowest I have felt since the late 90's, when I really wanted to get it over with.

I'm struggling badly at the moment, not sure who to talk to, no one returning my messages, I feel as if I have fallen totally off the radar, waiting for people to get back to me, even the limited numbers of friends are not bothering to stay in touch. This morning I had a huge row with my Wife, I don't blame her, I blame myself, we desperately want a place of our own, and a chance to start a family, but I keep getting let down, when looking for work, all our plans keep getting derailed.

It just hacks me off, when I see people who seem to do things with very little effort, getting far ahead, yet my Wife and I, work our arse's off and just get no where. I have tried everything to make things happen, but now I'm just feeling so flat, I just want to get it over with.

My Mother God Bless her, is slowly losing the plot, and because she is useless at sorting out her life and even simple day to day things, is really dragging us down day by day. I hate to see her like this, I so miss my Father and his counsel, he always knew what to do, and now he's out of the picture she just feels lost, and I'm constantly being asked to help her. In desperation I even suggested that I could pay for my Wife to go back to New Zealand, so she could at least make a fresh start, and at least she would be away from this purgatory, but to her credit she has refused to do this.

I can't see a future for us anymore, though I have tried my damdest in the last year since we returned from overseas. People keep asking why we have come back, well it was quite simply because we were getting shat on overseas, and came back because of my parents.

We just don't know what else to do..........

Story shared: 03/08/2007 13:17:07

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#1 by gloucelady on 30/10/2007 09:08:18 (id-751).
Hi there, it sounds like a desperate situation you are in. Are you actually living with you mother? What is the situation here? The main thing is that you and your wife love each other and will stand by each other through everything. It is hard to get your own house these days with everything being so expensive, im going through the same thing with my husband, we cant afford our own house but I am determined not to let it get me down or ruin my relationship. It is very frustrating I know and it does make you feel depressed and then family adds to it with their problems too. There has to be away to get this all into some control, the first thing is to get yourself sorted and your depression so that you will be able to handle day to day life. It is no good trying to put other things in life right when you are feeling too depressed. When you feel better in yourself, you will see more clearly and be able to sort other stuff out then. Remember take one day at a time, these things take time and you have a loving wife who will stand by you through this. Look for other ways of getting financial help, keep searching and dont give up, all the best x

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DESPERATE FOR CHANGE AND A FUTURE 2

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