Invisible Lady
My story goes like this, Six years ago I got married and moved away from my family and friends to another area. My husband is in the forces. I was under the impression that my friends would come to visit me in my new house and keep the contact up but how wrong was I. Within months I was forgoten, the only thing i done was move away and start a new life. I tried to keep up the contact by calling friends as often as I could and tried to visit them but it was all a one sided effort. Basically unless I made the effort they didnt bother, so I eventually give up trying. My parents rarely came to visit, they are both ill and dont like travelling, so they came to the house once for a weekend. I would however travel every couple of months to visit them to maintain the contact with my family. My husband goes away for about six months every year and im left alone in the house. I cried alot in the first few years but now I have got used to being alone and feeling invisible. I tried to do something about it and got myself into university and things started to pick up but then my husband gave me the news that we had to move again so I had to finish university and leave the few friends I had made behind again and so the story continues. I have now lived in my current house 2 years and I dont have a single friend. My family have come to visit a few times because it is a bit nearer than the last place but I seem to visit them more than they visit me. I knew I had to pass my driving test to be able to get out and about otherwise I would become a prisoner of my own home 24 hours a day so I did. I passed my driving test this year. I am still alone in this world but at least I can go out shopping sometimes to pass the hours away. Infact my life has become a sad and lonely one. I walk around here and no one knows me or cares. I am the invisible lady. The friends I once knew have vanished and I wonder now if they were friends at all, surely a real friend would care and want to know if you are ok, none of mine do. I have accepted this situation now. I havent attempted to build a life here in this new place because I will have to move again next year and the cycle will begin over again. Do I just go with the flow and except I am always to be this way? Do I try to fight it and do something about it although I think it wont help me? Is this my destiny?
Story shared: 22/06/2007 11:49:42
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I just wanted to let you know that I've read your story and that it touched me. I admire your strength in dealing with the loneliness, and how you still try to maintain contact with your friend and family, even though you feel it's all a one-sided effort. Please keep in mind that for some of them, it's not that they don't care about you, but that they are going through a life-phase when they are most self-centred (20-30s), as all they think about it trying to maintain their marriages, kids, relationships, careers etc. I hope you find yourself a handful of good friends who are there for you when you need them. When you do find them, hold on to them!
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