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i need to talk

i have needed someone to talk to for a while but im not very good at talking to people so i thought i shud just write it all down.well this might seem a bit supid but im only 15 and for the last 2 months i have been really upset angry and paranoied ive cried nearly every morning and mostly every night but what i think caused this is my stepdad he started me on drugs not serious ones just class c now i cant stop it hasent caused any problems im just stoned nearly every day now my mum has splitt up with him he is doing alot of bad stuff to my family but its bieng delt with and there is stuff i want to tell my mum about him but i am ashamed and afraid to do so its stuff tht he has done to me not rape but because of this i have lost my confidence and im am scared of life lately all i think about is losing my family my mum my baby brother but im going to see a councellar then i think il tell my mum everything like ive always wanted to.ive only wrote this because i need to express my self im not looking for attention and i deffinetly dont want any. thanks for reading

Story shared: 22/09/2006 04:44:19

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#1 by Freckles on 22/09/2006 11:03:32 (id-46).
I am really sorry for what you have had to go through. What your step father has done to you is truely horrendous and he should be punished for it. I'm glad your mum has split up with him. It would be good if you could tell your mum what's happened. You should not feel ashamed. You have done nothing wrong. I hope the counsellor can help you and make you feel good about yourself again and help you enjoy life. I hope you are now free of this man and I hope you go on to have a really happy life and can clear your head of what he has done to you. God Bless

#2 by TIM on 09/10/2006 11:29:48 (id-238).
I want you to know you are not alone. I'm not a woman, but i know a lot of women who have had similar experiences (including my girl friend). First of all, you need to know that it's not your fault. You did not do anything to deserve this or encourage it. I also think you need to forgive your dad no matter how hard it is. Forgiving him will help you move on. Perhaps you should write him and let him know how much he hurt you and tell him you have forgiven him. You should also consider helping others in pain around you. Giving hope to others helps us realise there is hope for us as well. I'll pray for you, and i'm sure you will soon realise that God has a lot of good in store for you. Take care

#3 by Rachel on 12/10/2006 10:57:24 (id-249).
Let today be the start of you getting back in control of your life, easier said than done I know.
The abuse that your step Dad has put you through is not your fault and until you accept that you will be letting him win. He is a weak person that is why he has inflicted his weakness on you because you are some one he could influence.
You have to believe that you are worth the life you have been given and that you are going to make the best effort to have a good life and lead it well. There are things that you would love to tell your mum but obviosly can't so tell someone else. The samaritans are contactable by e-mail and you can tell them anything. I found that a great idea is to write it down, keep your thought safe then when you are feeling more incontrol set it sailing down a river and let all your past worries sail away with your book.
Then your future is yours to enjoy.

#4 by Overlord on 18/01/2007 14:11:54 (id-447).
You have NO REASON to be ashamed. The crying, that just comes and goes. Part of the terretorry, but talk to someone about it properly. It doesnt matter who, just someone you trust
The drugs are worth getting off, you're numbing yourself to yourself. I know thats the point, but till, yiu have to be able to live with yourself.
Talk to your mum, and don't put up with Him.
Good luck

#5 by ライブチャット on 23/09/2008 17:28:36 (id-1254).
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