confused about everything
At the moment im just so confused about everything.
I'm at sixth form school doing my AS levels and im really not enjoying it.
I dont want to give in and I know I wont, its just I find it all so hard. I have my friends but when they arent around i sometimes find myself sitting alone and feeling not very happy at all. I often feel quite lonely because few of my friends have similar intrests to me, few of them care about what I care about. What hurts more is that I used to have quite alot of friends but over time we've seem to fallen out and are no longer friends. Especially since some of my friends left after GCSE to go to other colleges. I'm quite shy too and make friends better when I'm in smaller groups. I feel like so much pressure is on me all the time and I don't like it. I dont like where I live either because its such a boring town with no variety of people, I really cant wait to move away. Its just I hate going into school when I know that I cant really be myself because people dont give me a chance, or Im alone so I have no one to interact with. It really hurts and it just makes me resent everything. I want to find some like minded people. And I'm also so scared of my future, theres so many things I have to decide- do I take a gap year? do I go to uni? which uni? and how will i ever afford it??
Its just so scary and I dont know when things will get better :(
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